psychedelic sanity

2005-12-13T01:58:00.000+08:00

A CHANGE WOULD DO YOU GOOD. or so says sheryl crow.

http://shenanigan.blogsource.com

2005-12-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

What do I find most attractive in a guy?

His charisma.

That's random...but yeah, I like charismatic & charming guys. But then again, which right-minded girl doesnt?

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We had the Principal Farewell concert "Metamorphosis" last Friday at Ite College East. It had been an awesome experience, PLUS... we got paid! woohoo. Not a lot, but enough to cover up the transportation costs = Cab rides from Bukit Batok to Simei. I gotta stop wasting my money on cabs. Maybe I should make it my New Year resolution. To get rid of my bad habits. But I don't make New year resolutions. Oh hell. My next Emceeing stint will be for a Minister's visit next Wednesday. Can't wait!

Speaking of experience, I had been offered to run this pushcart business in school with 5 other students the other day and accepted. It was an Entrepreneurship project and my Class Advisor had recommended my classmate, Sarah and I. Loads of fun but running a business is not at all easy. Sweet rewards though. Literally, 'cause we had to finish up the cookies/mashed potatoes and the drinks that we didn't manage to sell. Thanks to all who came down and supported us.

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To my band, Amber & Me, I am so sorry I haven't been able to meet up with you guys. I'll call you guys up the moment I have time to spare! I'll make sure I'm we'll get to meet up sometime next week.

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Lime Sonic Bang

Were you there? My friends and I went down to check out the event and get ideas for the event we're organising. The initial plan was to go down, check out the location, the crowd and the flea market, stay to catch Electrico and be back home by 10pm 'cause poor Dad was alone at home. Mom and Sis were happily away on holiday at some resort in Desaru.

What actually happened? Piz and I stayed til the end of the gig to catch Wicked Aura and I reached home at 1am. I felt terrible 'cause I kinda told my dad I was gonna be back early with his dinner. Yeah right.

We really enjoyed it though! Dancing and jumping & screaming but damn, the crowd was so disappointing. People, its a gig, not some cina mampos show. (I realise I use those words alot nowadays. Cina mampos! wahaha) And I bought a pair of ear..erm ornaments(?)! Well, they're not earrings, nor ear studs, but look nice on your ears. $10 freaking bucks lah, but it's worth it.

Bumped into quite a few people too. Leah, we'll hang out soon! And Dharma, I'm still surprised that you could recognise me. It was a pleasure meeting you!

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yet another unexciting post. i hate this.

im tired.

later.

2005-11-23T11:59:00.000+08:00

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The next 12 months will be a very interesting journey for me. I never thought I would find myself actually feeling such excitement when talking about anything related to school. I am excited because I'm doing the most interesting courses ( for me, that is)...doing things I've always wanted to do, and KNOW I want to do in the future.

Now, who said ITE was hopeless? Whoever that person is deserves to be shot in the head, because I'm loving life in ITE. You're only hopeless when you make yourself to be!

Here's what we will be doing this semester:

Business Communications

Public Relations

Event Management

Entrepreneurship
(an elective module. the other 3 choices being Human Resource Administration, Banking & Finance Services and Web Publishing.)

Sad to say, there are still people who will have that stereotypical impression of ITE students. Well, that's too bad for them. I've got nothing to prove to anyone but myself. I know that biggest reward for me will be the maximum satisfaction I get from being in control of my life. For knowing what I want to do. For being ambitious.

I warned my Event Management lecturer, Mr Zainal, that I am a very ambitious person. I am going to work my ass off and enjoy the sweet experience of being all competitive and working under pressure.

Speaking of which, our Event Mgmt lecturer, Mr. Z, is the only person who can keep us quiet for two whole freaking hours,not even moving our asses from the seats. The only one who can talk for 2 hours straight without any students begging for breaks. He has such flair and charisma! Such charm...So naturally, he'd be popular among the girls in the school. Everyone's always vying for his attention. And he'd offer it so willingly, they fall in love with him. He's quite a big shot I must say, looking at all the things he'd done before he started to teach at the ITE. In fact, he started his own hotel.

Heh, and there are new lecturers around. One really caught my my friends' and my attention. We call him Ricky Martin. Haha, but only 'cause he's got quite an ass. You have got to see it for yourself! Once he kept walking past me while we were seated in class, Asilah suddenly said, "Don't you just wanna slap his ass?", like as if she knew what we were secretly thinking. *GASP* hahaha.

Anyway, my schedule is gonna be crazy and all screwed up. But fun, i guess. I'm psyched!

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I went for two Basic Theory Practice lessons just now from 7 all the way till 8.30. Basically, I had to try out the different sets of questions which are simililar to the questions which we're gonna hav to answer for the real test itself. So I went into the room, and most of the seats were already taken so I went to a seat nearest to me, beside this guy who seemed rather restless. No papers, no pens. Only a monitor screen and your finger. Yes, it's all touch-screen.

Throughout the whole session, the room was silent but what I found so annoying was that some people can't seem to understand that it's 'TOUCH-SCREEN' and not 'HIT-SCREEN'. You could hear the continuous staccatos of *thud**thudthud* when their fingers hit the screen as if threatening it to be correct, or else. And the guy beside me was not making things any easier.

He kept mumbling and twisting and turning in his seat with the constant "urgh"s, "aiyah"s, "pfshhh"s, "hmph"s. Argh, shut up!

After doing a few sets, I started getting less FAILs (below 90% or 45/50) and more PASSes. In fact, I got 100% twice. So i immediately booked another practice lesson as well as Evaluation Test (Mock Test) for tomorrow morning, before school. You see, in order for you to take the Basic Theory Test, you have to pass your Mock Test first. Looking forward to it, though I'm not really looking forward to waking up really early in the morning when I could get more sleep 'since school starts at 12pm tomorrow. Come on, Fiza. You can do it!

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Happy Birthday, Shahidah dearest! You're Seventeeeeennn. We've been friends for 5 years now. I got to know you from the scrawny little giggly preteen to the blur and quirky pal to the fabulous babe that you are now. I can't believe you're taller than me now. Blurgh. The changes I' ve seen in you are amazing and they're only for the better. You're not getting any younger but certainly getting wiser. To more babelicious years lah, babe. Love you many many!!

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I'll be posting up more pictures soon!

Hari Raya, gigs, school and more =)

later.

2005-11-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

I don't blog for an audience. So, if you're reading this and you find it boring and not amusing....well, it's not supposed to. Now shoo...go away. I wanna try remember how i spent my days.

To my friends who asked how I've been doing,

Let's recap on what I did since my last post.....Here goes.

3 November. Hari Raya's not too happening this year. In fact, it's not happening at all. First day had been awkward. Awkward's not good. Let's hope it's better next year.

4 NovemberSecond day, the cousins on the dad's side went out 'cause Lily had to go back to KL the next day. We caught The Legend of Zorro at Lido. Do not watch it unless you're a huge fan of Antonio Banderas/ Catherine Zeta-Jones. Damn, that's $8.50 gone...just like that. I'm not much of a movie buff. I'm not much of a movie buff and seldom go to the movies just because. Urgh. In fact, it's a waste of time...unless the movie's really good. 'The Beach', the one with Leonardo DiCaprio. That's a good one. And 'American Beauty'. Oh and I bumped into old classmate, Isa.

7 November, Happy Birthday Piz! Went out with Nor. Bumped into Ana. Met her when we joined School of Rock. She was a journalist but now freelancing.

8 November. First day at Music Concerto. I like it better than Yamaha. Aunt is back from Pakistan.

9 November. Happy Birthday to me. I'm 18 now. No big birthday bash tho. In fact, I didn't even wanna celebrate it. But my family surprised me with a Swensens Ice-Cream Cake when my friends came over for Hari raya visiting. Thanks. I love you guys. And my dad actually asked to take a picture with me. 'Cause I'm 18 now. Weird. Thanks to everyone who messaged me, 12 midnight or not. And Grams, you give the best presents.

11 November. Drama at Ite College East's CeMTA (Centre for Music and the Arts). I got a role in the upcoming production that will be staged next April. I'm playing a mother. Heh. Nice people over there. Just imagine. Once school starts, I will have to travel from my campus in Clementi all the way to Simei, after school every Friday. Oh boy, we're gonna have so much fun.

That evening, there was also that gig over at cathay Cineleisure. Took alot of pictures with the D50. The photos suck. The camera is excellent but I'm gonna have to brush up on my photography skills.

After that, had supper with dearest Shahidah at Swensen's. Had a great time lah, babe. We shall meet up again soon!

Oh and I bought some birthday presents for myself. Heh. Okay, that's just an excuse to splurge. New bag, new shoes, new top. I shouldn't have bought the Jack Purcell though. Should've just bought Chuck Taylors. Oh hell. And I love the top.

12 November. My aunt came over 'cause she wasn't around on the first day of Hari Raya. She told us about her experience in Pakistan. About having to pee in Ziploc bags in the middle of the night 'cause the toilet was too far away. A woman wanted to give her newborn to my aunt.

13 November. Balik kampung. Grandmother's kampung in Malacca. I don't remember doing much. Slept alot though. In the car on the way there. At the house, 'cause the place was so quiet & serene. In the car on the way back. Anyway, somebody who lived a few houses away was found lying unconscious in a pool of blood by some of the villagers. The old man who lived alone was in the bathroom the night before and was found only the next morning.

14 November. 2nd lesson at Music Concerto.

15 November. 3rd lesson at Music Concerto.

16 November. Registered at Bukit Batok Driving Centre. Wooohooooo. Finally.

17 November. First basic Theory lesson. The instructor was amusing. But do they HAVE to keep mentioning "accidents", "killed", "deaths" and "injuries"? They showed this picture where a motocycle hit a car and the rider and pillion's body had flung in the air. It was scary. When I got home, I asked my sis if she feels scared when she drives. To which she said, "Yes, because I'm afraid if something might happen to Dad's car. Then I'm really dead." Blurgh. Thanx eh.

18 November. Drama at Ite College East. Everyone had a blast. On the way home, bumped into Simon in the train.

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OMG. Like, does my life sounds so boring or what? haha. Well, it's not. Plus, I'm joining this Arabic lang. class on Saturdays with my sister.

Well, it's gonna get even more hectic once school starts. That's on Monday. School, Driving lessons, Keyboard lessons, Drama practices, Arabic classes, Farewell concert rehearsals.

Woohoo! I'm gonna hav me some fun!

So don't blame me for the crappy blog posts. I could barely think anymore.

2005-10-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

Last night I found myself unconsciously humming to the song 'Viva Forever' by the Spice Girls. Do you people remember that song? That song had supposedly been the most depressing song in the history of my catastrophic life as a Pre-Teen. OMG.

So I looked up my old Spice Girls CD albums at 3 in the morning. I can't believe I still remember the words to the songs! So there I was at 3 in the morning going ( try guessing the song!) :

"I need some love like i never needed love beffoooooreee...WAnna make love to ya BAYBEEEHH...."

ans: 2become1

"I'm giving you everything, all that joy can bring, this i swear...."

ans: say you'll be there

"YOOOO I'll tell you what i want, what i really really want!!......."

ans: wannabe

AND MY PERSONAL FAVE.

Are you ready? 1, 2 ,3 GO!

"Swing it, Shake it, Move it, Make it...WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!"

ans: who do you think u are

I still remember the dance steps to that one. HAHA.

How symbolic. I'm turning 18 on the 9th of next month. I had been jumping around the house, belting out these songs at the top of my lungs when I was 9. That's 9 years ago. It's nothing, really. But i just like to think bout stuffs like that. No, I like to think. Period.

You see, that's why I like to be kept busy. I've been told (and I'm aware) that I think too much. Is that bad?

2005-10-21T02:58:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK.

[Note: I've not been blogging for awhile and I think I've lost my sense of, well....sense. So my posts are really gonna be random stuff that comes to mind and may not make much sense. And probably not even chronologically sensible, but ill try. If you understand what I just said, BRAVO.]

My exams are over and I'm on break now for about a month. So much, no, too much has happened since the last post.

So, what am I gonna talk about? I don't know. In fact, I don't know how long this is gonna last 'cause school's gonna start and I'm gonna be busy all over again. And I'm glad. I like being busy and I like knowing that I'm needed somewhere and knowing that I have something to do. I think I might not have realized this before, but I work well under pressure.

Amber & Me had a few gigs here and there. Life in school is great. Been catching up with some friends and family. Met a lot of interesting people. Had alot of interesting conversations. Debarred from sitting for exams. And then get a scholarship. GOD knows how. My friends think I speak Malay funny. My english is deteriorating.

And *grins*....the girl's got a crush. *grins*

Gosh, I feel 17 all over again. Wait...I AM still 17. Oh well, I have 'til November 9. *HINT HINT*

Me: I hate girls.

Sis: You're normal.

(Don't worry, I don't really hate girls.)

Well, I guess that's a good start.

Shall continue later...

To all Muslims, Happy Puasa-ing.

To me, Happy PMS-ing.

I love my blogskin.

later.

2005-09-03T03:15:00.000+08:00

Were you at Tapestry last weekend? Well, I missed the action. I have people telling me they had to run back & forth from Wheelock to Far East to catch the bands. Grr. Thanks people, I do feel so much better.

After the competition on Saturday, it was dinner with the girls, then Shidah and me left for town, hoping to catch the last bands performing. By the time we reached Wheelock Place, it was 9.45pm and we heard the MC go "Okay, that's all we have for tonight!" (familiar, no?) Boohoo.

After which, we decided to try our luck at Far East. And hey, we were lucky! So we stood alongside everyone else outside of Far East Plaze, near Old Chang Kee, and noticed a lot of familiar face. There were Sean, Ken, Hafiz & Alfred who were playing. Fauzie and the rest were hanging out by the sides. And i saw Ferhad.

At the same time, we were approached by this chirpy lady and asked if we wanted to make a donation. I got the Tapestry tag thingy for donating 2 bucks, and it's a very nice tag. I saw alot of people using it in school.

So, I may have missed WGB and Leaven Trait (damn), but at least I got to catch these guys in action...and i got a very nice lanyard for helping the needy. Hooray.

All these, with the flower still in my hair. Aren't you proud of me?

alfred, ken, hafiz & sean

Ken doing his thing, Fauzie looking blur.

Say cheese.

can u spot me? clue: I have a flower tucked behind my ear.

anybody took pics of the other bands in action? show me pls.

later.

2005-09-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

Somebody said that I'm always talking about my perpetually-late habits. Hafidz, i don't lor...

Anyway, received this rather amusing email about Why Women Choose to be Single. Heh. There's some truth in it, but please do take it with a pinch of salt.

Why woMen Choose t0 bE siNgLe...

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are not nice.

3. The handsome & nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice & heterosexual men are married or already attached in a committed relationship.

5. The men who are not so handsome,but are nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome,but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money are after our money.

8. The handsome men,who are not so nice & somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice & have money, are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome,somewhat nice & have some money & thank God are heterosexual, are shy & NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!

11. The men who never make the first move,automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

NOW,WHO UNDERSTANDS MEN?

"Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes, & it's our job to stomp on them & keep them in the dark until they mature into something you'd like to have dinner with."

2005-08-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

humour me.

Battle of the Bands 2005 - Interschool. the competition on Saturday was a lot of fun. complicated but fun. it was held at West Spring Seondary School. although i have to say that we felt pretty out of place. the concept of our band were totally different. but no matter how different a band is from the rest, i still believe that what's most important is that we're all in it for the music. the competitions are simply a platform to challenge ourselves to see how far we can go and also to push ourselves to give in our best.

but some people are obviously more narrow-minded than others.

Here's to the people who criticized us and supposedly "don't like us".

At least we had the guts to try. Everybody's got to start somewhere and we're not afraid to make mistakes and we're not afraid to be let down. Most importantly, we're not afraid to lose. Not afraid to fail. If you think that being an "all-talk, no action" is a good way to start, by all means.

What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger.

I'd really appreciate criticisms if they were directed at our weaknesses and areas which we can work on. But if you "don't like us" JUST BECAUSE, then it's a waste of time. Save your breath and leave it to your little gossip sessions because it doesn't help, neither will it affect us in any way. Don't make me call u the "K" word!

*drops serious tone*

I don't know if it's good or bad that we lost by a mark. Yep. We lost by a mark. Well, I'm not gonna make a big deal out of the marks. I'd like to thank 2 of the judges, Paul Das and the drummer from Ministry of Rock (i think his name is Akim?) for your comments when I approached them after the competition that day. Really appreciate it.

Well, I guess after observing all the bands, the organisers felt that a mark was indeed a big deal, and felt we deserved certain "tokens" that had initially been offered only to the official winners of the competition.

That performance had been a pretty special one, I'd say, because that was the first time my parents ever saw me performed. Coolness. It was nice seeing their pleased faces in the crowd.

Anyway, I knew it was going to be another *testosterone-overloaded* day, so I had a flower in my hair the WHOLE day just so I'd feel more girlish. And whadya know, I loved having a flower in my hair! Who cares if i looked silly...I had a flower in my hair! I never had a flower in my hair before. heh.

To all who came down to support us, THANKS EH!

To Hairul, who got the Best Bassist Award, congrats, the next jamming sessions are gonna be on you. Haha.

To the guys, im proud of u all lah. Let them say what they want. We're not gonna let anyone or anything dampen our spirits.

Congrats to all the winners! Even the rude ones...

later.

My dad just called me out to tell me a lame joke.

What's a deer with no eye?

Ans: No idea.

Heh.

2005-08-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

I don't have cable at home. Yes, that means none of those Cartoon Network or HBO and most importantly, no MTV. Even if I do have cable, it'll be a waste of money anyway 'cause firstly, I spend more time OUT of home, than AT home. So when I do get to stay at home, Im either resting (sleeping) , cleaning up the mess, using the computer, reading, basically anything but the TV.

Yes, i'm telectually-deprived.

Anyway, I was searching MTV2 for that live video of The Used & MCR's cover of "Under Pressure". You gotta try to catch it, if u haven't already. It's awesome. Im not a big fan of either, but I must say after watching that vid at Zi Jian's place the other day, I think I like that version better than Bowie & Queen's.

The main point for my entry today is that, I couldn't find that video BUT I found this:

http://www.mtv2.com/#series/18089

24 Hours of Foo.

HOLY FUUCCCKK.

Foo Fighters rock. Period.

They had a concert in Singapore at WTC Harbour Pavillion on 6 January 1996. I was 9. Well, it's been 9 years now. Come again!

later.

2005-08-23T02:50:00.000+08:00

I can't get this song out of my head. I Love.

Coffee

by Copeland

album: Beneath Medicine Tree (2003)

there's plenty of time left tonight,
i promised i'd have you home before daylight.
we do the best we can in a small town;
act like big city kids when the sun goes down.

if it's not too late for coffee,
i'll be at your place in ten.
we'll hit that all-night diner
and then we'll see.

there's so many things i have to say,
i'll stay up all night to hear about your day.
we do the best we can in a small town;
act like kids in love when the sun goes down.

if it's not too late for coffee,
i'll be at your place in ten.
we'll hit that all-night diner
and then we'll see.

there's a love that transcends
all that we've known of ourselves,
and i'll wait for it to come,
i'll wait for it to come.

well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart
through its shell,
and i'll wait for it to come,
i'll wait for it to come.

if it's not too late for coffee,
i'll be at your place in ten.
we'll hit that all-night diner
and then we'll see.

there's a love that transcends
all that we've known of ourselves,
and i'll wait for it to come,
i'll wait for it to come.

well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart
through its shell,
and i'll wait for it to come,
i'll wait for it to come down.

later.

2005-08-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

This afternoon, my dad had The Eagles' and Deep Purple on loudly in the living room. As we were singing along to Hotel California, I got reminded of the rumour about the song being satanic and that Hotel California is really the name of the "Church of Satan". If you listen to the words, you'll find that it's plausible.

Check this page out: http://www.snopes.com/music/songs/hotel.htm

It's nothing more than just a rumour. Those who chose to believe in the rumour probably needed something interesting to spice up their lives. Nonetheless, it's a beautiful song. Even if it's proven satanic after all, I think I'd still listen to it. Listening to something satanic, doesn't make me satanic.

"Welcome to the Hotel California..."

later.

2005-08-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks everyone for the interesting suggestions. I guess I've been worrying too much, or not getting enough rest coz I'm now down with a terrible flu. Being sick sucks.

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don't get me wrong. i love my parents. but i think parents have some special powers we aren't aware of 'cause mine can spoil my day effortlessly in a split second.

I'm not complaining though. Once i get my new keyboard, they can spoil my days however they wish. Just as long as I get the keyboard. Don't call me a brat. I had to convince my dad that I'm willing to part with a fraction of my weekly allowance so that I could continue my keybaord lessons and also get a new keyboard.

(Just in case someone super-rich & super-generous is reading..)

I would love to have the KORG PA50. It's only slightly over a grand.

But i think I'll settle for a Yamaha PSR- series for now and upgrade in the future.

By the way, I've been told that these keyboards are available at Mustafa Centre at a very low price except they don't come with a guarantee. Do you think it's worth the risk to get one without a guarantee?

later.

2005-08-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

Ladies & Gents, Saudara Saudari, Guys, Girls, Brats and all beings on the face of the earth....

I need help.

How in the world do you people wake up in the morning? And im not talking about 11 in the morning. I'm talking 5-7 am. I'm starting to hate myself, but seriously it's not like I don't even try to wake up early! I don't think im lazy per se but hey, there's a little lazy kid in everyone, no?

My everyday routine (or lack thereof) is getting on my nerves! Different methods have been tried & tested but to no freaken avail. I try to sleep early but no matter how early I hit the sack, I'll only drift off to dreamland at 2am earliest, usually 3 or 4am. This sucks big 'cause its taxing on my body and screwing up my brains.

"How bout setting multiple alarm clocks at the same time?" - Done that.

"Don't your mom wake you up?" - No hun, my parents gotta go to work so they can afford the multiple alarm clocks you suggested.

"What bout your dad?" - You got something against my parents or something? Im the one who needs help here. So, let's focus on me shall we?

"Don't you think you're being an irresponsible young adult?" - Shut up, Bitch.

This morning, I reached the classroom just in time to have the exam question paper handed to me in the face. That's after having practically half the class called & text me to hurry 'cause the Invigilator was gonna start the paper without me. Well, let's look on the positive side shall we? At least I got to do the exam within it's full one-hour duration. Heh.

My skin's having a breakout and I think my sleep deprivation is partly to be blamed. I want my skin back!

Dear not-so-perfect-but-so-much-better-than-the-current skin, please come back. I miss you. If I promise to sleep, will you come back?

Love,
Fiza

So, suggestions please Dear-Beloved-Blog-Readers. Please make full use of the tagboard.

Tell me:
- How do you wake up so early in the morning?
- What should I do so that I can fall asleep earlier easily?
- Other than Botox, what can be done to repair my sleep-deprived eyes?
(Eye-cream don't seem to be working. Bummer.)

Thank you, your cooperation will be so much appreciated. Anyone?

later.

don't drink and drive, you might spill the beer

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2005-08-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!

So, how did you spend your holiday?

Mine had been a blast!

First up, Shahida & I went down to Yishun to catch 3dash1. I wasn't really sure what time they were gonna be up but since Nashir said they were performing at 3.15pm, we took our own sweet time at lunch. On our way to that big field, we heard Ashik's voice saying, "Ok, this is going to be our last song". What?? Great.

So we quickened our pace and as we walked on the mud & sand i saw a familiar flustered face walking my direction. It was Scott. He was the friendly assistant stage manager for SOR. We waved eagerly at each other, had a brief chat, we walked on and saw the HUGE stage with the three small guys on it. Haha. They were performing the song they performed at the Finals, "And if you're Gone". Cool song. I like.

After they did their set, this tall guy in front of us turned and it was Sujin Thomas. He was one of the judges at the auditions and Semis and also a Music Reporter for Life!. After exchanging "hi"s, we went to stand in the shade and took shelter from the scorching heat. I guess even the centipedes in the field were looking for shelter too 'cause one long black one crawled up under my bootcut jeans! YIKES!!

Met up with the guys for a while then we left for City Hall. While waiting for Shermin & Ting, bumped into Andrew!

Then Sha & I took more pix to occupy our time while waiting for them...

Upon their long awaited arrival, to the Esplanade we went. Shermin brought her younger sister who is such a darling!! Im not one who's very fond of kids but she's an exception. Anyway, it wasn't at all surprising that everywhere we went to was overwhelmingly crowded. So we hung out at Mrs. Fields until Ting got hungry and we went to eat at 2Hot. People, the next time I suggest going there to eat, please kindly scream a "FUCK NO!".

After an absolutely unsatisfactory and expensive meal, we stood outside Thai Express waiting for the fireworks. Met Kak Sarah who was having dinner with her friends. Fireworks were beautifooool!! I especially loved the one where it seemed as though it was raining gold but the fact was black ashes rained on us. Wonderful, nonetheless.

a cute guy laughed in amusement while we were taking this pic

later.

Sit & Type before you forget: The End

2005-08-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Sit & type before you forget: Finale

Ok last one.

School of Rock Finals (31/8)
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Met up with Tini from Everti and went down to Junction 8 together. The place was PACKED. And the hot weather didn't help at all. Oh well, better that than having to stand in the rain. So, band after band performed and saw quite a few familiar faces, including Dharma from West grand Boulevard.

He didn't know me, but when i was down at StreetFest earlier this yr to catch my uncle's band, The Ziggies, WGB was the band after my uncle's (refer to post Thursday, June 09 05). I remembered Dharma 'cause i remembered what he was saying about technology and that we should use Apple computers instead of the PC (i think). I didn't know what I was thinking but i guess he seemed nice in SOFT so i decided to just say hi when he walked past me.
He seemed shocked tho'. Sorry dude, didn't mean to freak you out.

The results were finally being announced and I was kinda excited for the bands. I was rooting for Audio Break'out, 3dash1 and Aspirin. And guess what? They were the Top 3 bands. Aspirin got Third place, Audio Break'Out - 2nd and 3dash1 were crowned champions. And they undeniably deserved it. Congrats to all the bands, i think they all did awesome!

Tini w/ Sunset Boulevard

Baybeats 2005

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Baybeats 2005 rocks.

You've got to be there to know how rockin' it was 'cause i don't how to go on describing it in words. I guess it was best for me 'cause I got to see Copeland on Sunday when I went down with elii. They are fabulous. We saw them at two separate sets. One at The Village when they did acoustics, and another at The Arena. Wow. I guess it was awesome also because we were inside the area where u have to pass the Security to get in. and even though the place was PACKED, there weren't alot of people standing near our spot so while we got to feel the atmosphere, we still got to listen to them in peace. Bliss.

Before Copeland was Electrico. They're impressive and I was really happy 'cause the turnout was incredible. This meant that more people are supporting local music. That's great news.

Half of elii and 3/4 of Copeland

an attempt to take a pic in the dark using Night Mode. Failed.

later.

Sit & type before you forget: Part 4

2005-08-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

Sit & type before you forget: Part 4

School Of Rock 2005: Semi-Finals 24th August 2005
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Quoted from soft.com.sg, "Testosterone overload". Seriously.
There were only 7 girls but I only got to talk to 2. Ros & Tini.

We were to report at 7.30am. Hairul called to wake me up at 5am. The sky was still dark when I left the house. I don't even wake up that early for school. Over there, Scott gave a briefing and showed the band leaders the way to the holding area which was at the 10th floor. While walking to the 10th floor, I talked to Ashik of 3dash1 'cause he was closest to my height compared to everyone else who were much taller.

After the souncheck, we hung out at McD's and then went to change. I wore a green wrap dress which I bought the day before while shopping with Shahida. After our performance, we went up to the holding area at the 10th floor. It's kinda like a really big store room or warehouse on the 10th floor. Very hot & stuffy but with washroom. When we came in everyone was just chilling and sitting around. Eventually, we got bored and started getting restless and kept crapping around. The guys started to play soccer with an empty plastic bottle and i remembered walking around the place, back & forth and being hit by the clappers repeatedly.

Took a lot of pix, of course. To which they gave me the nickname "Fiza the Camera Girl". I was busy taking pix of anything & everything that at one point of time when this lady wanted to bring me to the Main Office to do a phone interview with WKRZ she had to say, "Hi, are you done?" (i love taking pictures with my digicam u see, so if ur lucky i may one day ask u to pose for my camera, whoever you are)

Heh. Had loads of fun. While waiting for the results, i got to listen to some of the other bands and i was completely blown away! Ronin was there and we also got to see B-Quartet. They're like super fucken awesome can!

Because a photo is worth a thousand words:

Pls Fiza, it's too early in the morn to be taking pictures...

(u think i care? nope.)

we're just a buncha cool guys chillin ard...

(yeah sure. wait fauzie, why are u sitting on an umbrella?)

here's the part where the boredom started to get to us...

(especially these peeps from 3dash1 & audio break'out)

Fiza's Motto: When you're bored, take pictures!

(hello people, i said SMILE. U call THAT a smile??)

crazy dudes of Zero Infinity

crazy dudes of 3dash1

backstage: the guys of Audio Break'out, 3dash1 & Sunset Boulevard

Cinqo-nize with a guy from Burnout

later.

Sit & Type before you forget: Part 3

2005-08-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

Sit & Type before you forget: Part 3

Cont'd....

SOR Semis Preview Showcase ( Saturday, 16/7)
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We're the first band to perform. Marinca Cove Amphitheatre. Anyway, it was raining super-heavily, and i woke up late! So i left the house w/ nothing on my face & nothing on my hair! Yep, my hair was FLAT. May i also add that i actually went on stage w/o make-up and hair still flat? Thank God it was raining...

We were supposed to be at the place by 9.15am and we reached just in time. Everything happened so fast. Too fast. There was quite a lot of people considering that it was raining and it was 9.30 in the morning. But of course, they were there for the lucky draw. After that, we went off to take lots of pix and then off to Baybeats in the evening.

*Highlight of the day: We were at Amber Road and saw everything Amber. Amber Hotel, Amber Lodge, Amber Gardens.

Interview with WKRZ (19/7)
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We took the freaking cab during the freaking peak-period from Bukit Batok to Boon Lay all the way to Thomson Road. Why? Because we were told that our slot was gonna be at 7.15pm. When we arrived at about 7.10pm, there were 3 bands waiting for their turn. Urgh. So we just hung out and chatted with this other band, Aspirin, who's slot was after ours. They're a bunch of really friendly guys. Well, at least the 2 guitarists and their drummer are. Their drummer, Ken, is my schoolmate whom i never dared to approach in school 'cause he seemed very garang (fierce). Turns out he's a pretty friendly guy. Fauzie's cool & laidback. Sean was the friendliest and chatty-est of them all. Very tall guy whom i assumed was one of the older people in the competition. To my surprise, he is only 15-turning-16! He even showed us his Ez-Link cum Student pass to prove it!

After much crapping around, Suzanne Walker finally came out to bring us in at about 10pm. We had to do a brief interview and a recording of the Acoustic version of "Breathe in the Sunshine", repeatedly. I didn't have water with me, it was really late, the room was very cold and my voice sucked big time. Thank you very much.

We were finally done at about 10.45pm. Thank God. So, who heard the interview? =)

later.

Sit & type before you forget! : Part 2

2005-08-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

Sit & type before you forget! : Part 2

(speaking of type, do u know that Howard Shan Lo, the techno-geek from Eye for a Guy 2 has such fast fingers, he types 150 wpm? WHO types 150 wpm? Who does he think he is, The Flash?)

Okay people, today it's all about the School of Rock. thou shalt be enlightened.

I received a call while in the school library one quiet afternoon. Very familiar number. I ran out to answer the phone. Jennifer from Music & Movement called to inform me that Amber & Me was one of the 20 bands chosen to be in the Semi-Finals. How did i react?

"Eh, stop jumping up and down, i can't hear you...Relax.", said Jennifer.

Like OMFG, i so didn't expect to get the call. naturally, i'd be estatic. After more squeals of joy, (and weird stares) it was down to serious business.

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School Excursion 1 : SPH News Centre ( 9 July 05, Sat)

Interview, Photoshoot and Signing of Agreement.

Melissa Pang, u know her? Dinky said "pretty girl". Ashik said "she's cute right??"

Gimme a cute guy reporter, now! Heh.

The photograpther and this other reporter, Jill Alphonso, brought us to some stairway.

"Okay, i want a happy pose! Open your mouth and smile...", said Mr. Photographer.

So we posed, and posed and smiled and posed and laughed and i stopped, turned away from the camera for a short breather and straightened my top, and *kachik* the camera went. Did the camera just clicked? But i wasn't ready! Another *kachik*. Hey!!

Monday, July 11 2005

Life, The Straits Times.

They just had to choose that one. Say hello to Hunchback of Notre Dame! *boohoo* Oh hell, at least it beats sporting a rigid pose and ending up looking like a bunch of Pee Wees, no?

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School Excursion 2 : City Music ( 13 July 05, Wed)

All bands had to get their guitars toned for the Semis. Met up with the guys straight after school. They were in their ethnic costumes 'cause they were celebrating Racial Harmony Day in school. Heh. So it was off to Peace Centre. The moment we reached City Music, we were asked to leave our bags and guitars behind the counter. Who did i find sitting behind the counter? Mayuni Omar. Local songwriter/musician. Wanted to say hi, but decided not to.

After much drooling & swooning over the guitars and amps and keyboards, the guy whom I talked to over the phone, Yeegn Lougn, came to assist us with the guitar toning. Cool & Friendly guy. Not bad looking either. And eloquent guys are always good. (Found out a few days before the SEMIs that he was the General Manager and he's going to be one of the judges!)

Once done, we then proceeded to walk from Peace Centre all the way to the Esplanade but gave up once we reached City Hall Mrt. How fun.

To be cont'd......

This morning we were shown the percentage of our attendance for our OFA lessons in school so far. Warning letters will be sent to the parents of students whose percentage of attendance for all subjects is below 95. My friends would know me well, so i'm not going to elaborate on whether my attendance is above or below 95%. My friends have tried calling me to wake me up in the morning. Doesn't work. So now, my other classmate who lives nearby has offered to meet me at 7.20am at the bus interchange. I'm going to have to force myself to wake up and make sure i meet him on time! Thanx, Kenny. Let's hope this works.

It's now 1.58am. I'm going to sleep and wake up early in the morning. Body Combat today has been the best so far! Oh, and i finally got the Student Concession. Waha, i'll be tap tap tapping all the way....

later.

Sit & type before you forget! : Part 1

2005-08-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

Sit & type before you forget! : Part 1

SCHOOL
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School has been okay. More than okay actually, it's great! We'll be having our exams these few weeks. There was a floorball tournament held at ITE College East Simei last week. We had to go down to the east to show our "support" for College West on Thursday (28/7). So there were ITE students from all over Singapore congregating at the newest ITE College in the country. Like, hello...the school is huge! Their outdoor performance area alone is as big as my school.
Saw many familiar faces. And one who announced my name to the crowded cafeteria when he shouted my name. it was Khai. Wahaha.

On Saturday (30/7), Piz, Nor and I went down again for the HipHop class. Waha. It started at 9.30am but we arrived there at 10.30am. And it didn't help that we didn't know our way around! We found the place and after a few oh-so-super-embarassing incidents, we decided to go have lunch at the cafeteria instead. I bumped into some friends too. Met Nashir from 3Dash1 who is in the school's concert band. Serene (i missed u, gurl!) who is also in the concert band. And Nadia, an ex-schoolmate who's in Nursing.

We have a new Class Advisor and Business Fundementals teacher, Mr Sampson Lee. He's our third one and it's only been over a month. All three had enviable jobs at reputable companies, but no teaching experience. He's gonna have so much fun teaching a bunch of hyperactive and no-sense-of-shutting-up students. One peculiar thing about my class is that even though the guys are noisier, you can count on them to turn up for every lesson on time. The girls on the other hand.......well, it has only been over a month :)

Body Combat

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Why does KC have to keep calling out to me every time? Call someone else lah. Just 'cause i'm the youngest, everyone's so "hey little girl" to me. And they call me Siti for God's sake! The part of my name i seldom acknowledge. Heh. "Siti, you okay?" "Come on, Siti put in more strength! Jab-jab-cross, uppercut-hook and a jump kick! That's right!" And when i couldn't find my balance, i tried to hide behind the few people in front of me and then he said, "Siti, i can still see you, you know?" Hahaha!

We had an intensive crunching session. My abdomen's still aching. So is my ass! But at least i'm more coordinated and energetic now. Probably 'cause there are newer members now and i'm no longer the girl who couldn't get her left and right RIGHT. Waha.

sheer enthrallment

2005-07-30T03:55:00.000+08:00

wow. so much has happened. i don't even know where to start. Let's see....

Amber & Me didn't get to the Finals but we're really happy to have been one of the 20 bands in the SEMIs. The band's not giving up! The exposure and experience we gained has been priceless. No resting on laurels, we are gonna continue working on our sound and continue with our journey. Thanks to everyone who believed in and supported us! Thanks to those who turned up for the semis on Sunday! It felt great when Sheikh Haikel pointed at the group of people in the crowd who were cheering and asked "Are those your supporters?". We really appreciate it, you guys!

Thinking back on the competition, some (or most) of other bands have been around waay longer than we have and beat us when it comes to experience. They've played at countless gigs, they've joined (won) other competitions. The fact that we're only over a month old and got the opportunity to compete in the top 20 with these bands....I'm thankful. Alhamdulillah. We still got a long way to go. To the guys, we can do it. Patience is a virtue. So BREATHE IN THE SUNSHINE! *lol*

I've once mentioned that I blog so i can remember how i've spent my days.

So, to make things easier for me, these are some of the things i'm gonna be updating about.

>Trip to City Music
>Preview showcase at Marina Cove
>Interview with WKRZ
>School of Rock Semi-Finals
>Baybeats 05
>School
>Trip to ITE Simei
>What a cute week...
>Music Lessons
>Body Combat
>Men in White
>Jammin sessions
>School of Rock Finals

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But im not gonna be updating now though, coz it's 3.55am and i gotta and i WILL wake up at 7.30am (yea right, Fiza) to go down to ITE Simei at 9.30am later. Guess what i'll be doing there? HipHop class. Haha. Don't ask. Please, don't ask. Laugh, if you must, but don't ask!

For now, please check out http://www.purevolume.com/copeland

Listen to -Coffee-. Sheer enthrallment, them.

later.

2005-07-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

will be back soon.

2005-07-13T03:34:00.000+08:00

there are 4 members in my group. and i'm doin the whole presentation plus the extra work given to us all by myself. and u know what? i'm surprisingly pleased. some would choose to whine & sulk about having to do everything but i don't. 'cause apart from sleep, i've got nothing to lose. and i'm so happy that after a whole day of school which ended at 4pm, after which the guys and i had 3 hours of practice and now i'm still not asleep at 3 in the morning, doing a group project and listening to Godsmack (don't ask) to keep me awake. No coffee please, just water.

Firstly, i cannot be bothered to argue and force people to do things when they so obviously don't wish to do. At other times, i would've made sure that the work is fairly distributed among us. but i'm just too tired what with school and the competition and my family and my bad cough and i even skipped Body Combat today. That's a fraction of $100 gone. So i decided to volunteer and do everything myself. I feel bad though, coz i'd wanted them to get more involved. I hope they don't think im selfish. Wait, u know what? I don't even care.

ok, my parents are gonna wake up soon. I'm gonna have to wake up in 2 1/2 hrs time. Wait, how am i gonna wake up when im not asleep. Oh, and i still have clothes to iron!

i can do this! it'll be school from 8am to 4pm, then the guys and I have to go to Peace Centre after that coz the organisers told us to do so, and then......*yaaawwwnnnnn*

i'm walkin' on sunshine....

later,
SuperFiza

2005-07-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

i feel better now. much better. i should learn to calm down. think positive. breathe in. breathe out. everything is going to be alright.

few things to clarify. i didn't know what i was doing. the photographer was just snapping away, and he just had to choose a pic with my mouth open, looking blur and not looking at the camera, and that very poor posture. oh well, the only one who gives a damn is me. so, who gives a damn. let's all not give a damn.

and another thing, dinky is in boon lay secondary school and not ITE Clementi. Sorry, dink. they called me so many times to ask about our schools, yet they still got it wrong.

and one more thing, we're really in it for the experience, the exposure and the music. anything else, would be a bonus for our determination and sacrifices.

later.

2005-07-11T20:02:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed! im frustrated, pissed and....argh i'm so pissed i can't even think of a better word to say in place of PISSED. what the hell did i get myself into? what was i thinking? Fiza, what the hell were you thinking, you nincompoop?! i just wanna scream! im in such a dilemma. why why why? it makes me wanna....

shut up Fiza and get that stupid thought out of your head. every problem comes with a solution, doesn't it?

im mentally & physically exhausted. i just wanna curl up and never have to face the world again. but i won't give up.

Don't give up. Siti, don't give up!

Dear God, please give me strength and patience to pull through.

I will survive. i must survive.

later.

2005-07-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

today had been CRAZY. so much laughing. too much laughing. and the highlight of the day would be "1,2,3 before the solo". i can't explain what's so funny bout that phrase, but all 4 of us burst out laughing when dinky said it. just thinking about it makes me wanna laugh some more. u can't escape craziness when you're with them. we'ld laugh til we can't laugh any more, then stop. then i hear hairul's super-funny laughter again, and i see the ridiculous expression on their faces, and we start laughter round 2. amber & the screwballs.

after "jammin'" at zi jian's place today, met up with Nor in town. more laughter as usual. i also bumped into suriani. i've never actually had a proper conversation with her. i used to bump into her during my secondary school days. her school was near my house, while my school was near her house. and then after we graduated from secondary school we saw each other in the train quite a few times and exchanged "hi"s and that's it. i guess just now was our first proper conversation.

Nor and i went shopping! she bought a skirt, and i bought a new pair of jeans from Dorothy Perkins at Plaza Singapura. i had actually bought a pair from the new DP branch at Marina Square last week, even had them alter the length for me. when i picked it up last friday though, i realised they've altered it too short! it didn't seem too bad initially, but when i wore it with my sneakers, i couldn't stand it. so i gave it to my sis --who loved it so much-- and bought another pair! it even comes with a cool belt. yayness. now, im eyeing THE jacket. OMG i fell in love at the first sight! i hope they will still have it a month from now.

school tomorrow.

what happened to the weekend? what do u mean i gotta wait for the next one? excuse me, i'm talking to you!

later.

whoa...amber is the colour of your energy
whoa...shades of gold displayed naturally

2005-07-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

i knew it wouldn't be long til these emotions come to haunt me. im getting used to it's regular visits. i was kinda worried when i was so happy & carefree the last few weeks. the more happier & carefree, the more these emotions would push me down later. i should've just made the most out of those cheerful days while it lasted, and deal with the emotions when it comes.

but why am i feeling this way? everything doesn't seem right. at all. initially, things were goin great...what with the band gettin to the semi-finals, and school being bucketfuls of awesome fun. then suddenly everything seems so different. i was just warning the guys earlier today that i get stressed easily. like now. im so stressed. stressed over the same things i was so happy about just a few days ago. im remaining positive tho. can't wait for it to be over...go away, go away and leave me alone. please, i beg of you. is being happy too much to ask for?

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what is wrong with me? i seriously need proper time management training. there's just too many things for me to do right now. the pace in school is noticeably speeding up. i believed that i can cope. i still believe. Body Combat is now TWICE a week. Tuesday and Thursday. And the choreography is much more vigorous now, i felt like passing out after the 4th part, every time. the band needs waaayy more serious attention than i thought it'd need. we've been seriously serious all along, but it just got more serious and...how many times have i mentioned 'serious'? argh. the more i think about it, the more the serious-ness of it gets to me and the more stressed i get and when i'm stressed i go bonkers. you don't wanna see me when i go bonkers. seriously.

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the guys and i had to go down to the SPH building again earlier today. after which we went down to Junction 8 to check out the Open Plaza where the Semi-Finals and Finals are gonna be held. i brought along my digicam and we kept stopping to take pictures.

Listen up to "Morning glory with Suzanne walker" on WKRZ - 21st & 22nd July, 9-10am for an interview with amber and me.

later.

2005-07-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. Guess what? Amber & Me is gonna be in the Semi-Finals of School of Rock after all!
There will be a preview showcase on 16th July at Marine Cove Amphitheatre (that's at East Coast Park, near McDonalds). Amber & Me is gonna be the first band performing at 9.30am. Come down to catch all 20 semi-finalists in action!

*The semi-finals will be at Junction 8 on 24th July. 10% of results will be from audience voting. Will update more details later...

2005-07-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

*reminds self to go...

Some were saying that this year's Baybeats is gonna be more rockin' than last year's, while some are hoping it will be just as rockin' as last year's. I say, let's pray hard the crowd won't be as dead as last year's. There were people with mohawks/afros/red-green-orange-blue-rainbow-colored hair and all dressed in leather jackets/chains/whatever-thing-that-makes-them-look-cooler-than-the-rest-at-gigs to see the bands, get themselves checked by the security, go in and all they did was stood still under the hot Sunday sun. Maybe they were just warming up? No pun intended.

No offence, and absolutely nothing against people with mohawks and dressing up to a gig (i luv dressing up too...) but seriously, the music is so loud surely you can't resist moving your head at least?

I believe that this year's Baybeats is gonna be much better than last year's especially 'cause there's Electrico. Last year, nobody heard of 'em before. We shall see.....

*Youth Alive! 2005 this Saturday, 9 July at Singapore Conference Hall. Winners (voted by SMS by audience) will get to perform at Esplanade on National Day. Tickets $8 (pre-sale) available at YMCA Singapore (1 Orchard Road), $10 (at the door). All proceeds will be donated to Children's Cancer Foundation, Singapore's Children Society and Christian Care Services. http://www.musicforgood.org/events.html

later.

2005-07-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

The last time i was this sick had been so long ago...It's the kind where your whole body aches, your head feels so heavy, blocked nose, deaf ears, blocked throat coz it's so swollen you can't swallow a thing.

I should have gotten the hint since last Friday and stayed home and rest. But no, i had to go to City Hall right after school on Friday with Nor, Piz and Seha. (The three petite girls who can fit into a 2-seater in the train. I wish i was kidding...)

And went out again the whole day with Mom and Sis on Saturday. So much for goin to the SOFT meeting, I* was soft the moment my ass touched my bed...

And of course, again on Sunday with Aishah. Yep, i havent got a single day rest ever since school started. Not even on weekends. Bravo, SuperFiza!

But it's okay, at least i got a lot of new stuffs. Things i've been wanting to get for WEEKS of being broke. THANK GOD. You see, i hate asking my parents for money to buy personal stuffs. So, most of the time when i say i'm broke, it's usually "i-have-money-but-i'm-saving-it-for-later" broke. So, i can't spend alot of money which is as good as being broke.

Person: Let's go shopping/to the movies/out/spend our money on things we don't need!

Me: Can't.

Person: Why? No money ah? Ask from your father lah!

Person: It's not that I can't, I'd rather not.

Friend: Huh? But why? You scared is it? Why u scared? You blhablahblahblahblahfuckingblahblahblah.

I hope none of my friends get offended by this. It's not directed to anyone in particular.

So, here i am at home, taking a rest, missing lessons in school. I seriously wished i was in school coz i hate to miss lessons and be all blur the next day. Besides, i wanted to try out my new thumbdrive.

Ok...none of what i typed made sense to me....my head is hurting and i wanna puke. now, can somebody tell me why i feel so cold when the sun is shining brightly in the skkkkkkkkyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....ok..im..ooouu...t

2005-07-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

To all our friends, thanks a lot for your faith in us. Even though we aren't one of the 20 out 207 bands chosen to compete in the Semi-Finals, it's not the end for us. In fact, the experience had been priceless. We had lots of fun performing at the auditions. To get a more detailed idea of what went on that day, do check out "The White Stallion" at Dinky's blog. Thanks also to those who commented on our appearance in the papers. Thanks to those who bought the papers even though you don't understand a single word of Malay. Haha. As you would've probably read in the article, we are very new and we're glad to have had such an opportunity at the beginning of our journey.

So many things had happened that day to test our determination. Guitar straps left behind, school ended late, had to get Approval Leave from my Class Advisor, super long train journey. But it hadn't been all bad...On our way there in the train, a nice lady gave us directions to the place and wished us good luck. After the auditions, being approached by the photographers and being interviewed by reporters. What i felt was the best was that people were moving/dancing along with us and one of the judges had been clapping and moving in her seat too. The comments they gave would surely be able to help us improve ourselves.

Do come down to Junction 8 on 24 & 31 July and give your support to the bands that made it through.

In the meantime, you can also lend ur support to local bands at Heart Rock Singapore gigs going on at Singapore Expo.

SOFTies, meeting tomorrow at The Arts House. Hav fun...

(will update more on school life soon.)

later.

2005-06-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

Updates for the past week....Hav fun. For those of you who wanna get a taste of ITE life, read up on my Friday's entry.

Wednesday

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I had 2 VIP passes to this International Gala Hair Show at Mandarin Ballroom. School ended at 4 that day and i was thinking about whether i should go after all. Shahida was supposed to go with me but since she can't be home too late, i told her it's okay if she didn't wanna go. I didn't mind going alone but i thought it'd be a waste, 'cause it was an "Invite-Only" event. It was very last-minute so most of my friends couldn't come. In the end, i asked my classmate Hafizah (Piz) if she wanted to go and she agreed.

Met up with Piz at Jurong East. I was pretty dressed up but still nicely casual. Being invited to such an event, one should at least have the courtesy to dress appropriately, don't you think? Piz was in plain black t-shirt, cropped jeans, flats and a cute handbag. She then commented, "You're like my friend who likes to doll herself up. I'm a very simple girl". She sure is, though not as crazy and wacky.

At Mandarin Hotel, we were led to the reception area where refreshment was served. Then we received door-gifts and finally made our way into the ballroom. There were a lot of people but we got to sit at this small VIP area that's right in front of the stage, right behind the judges for the hairstyling competition.

I was most impressed with the Hair Show by this famous Italian hairstylist, Filipo. His techniques were breathtaking! Suddenly, i regretted not continuing my hairstyling course.

After the show, Piz and i went for supper at Swensen's. It was already 11pm. There's a cute guy who's working there. haha. His name tag showed "Alvin". When we were done, we realised that it was way past 12 and took a cab home. Reached home about 1+ realised that i still had school in the morning! I couldn't sleep till about 4am even though i had to get up at 6am. Which of course, i didn't. i woke up at 7.30, took a cab and strolled into class at 8.15am.

later.

2005-06-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

Friday
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I left the house at 7.30am and took the bus to school. When i reached the bus-stop and walked to school, someone called out me, "FiiiiiZaaaaaa!". I turned and it was Wati! She was in the same secondary school as me. Turns out she's in class R1, taking a NITEC course. (Just fyi, i'm a HIGHER NITEC student.) S he's been nice and friendly to me since secondary school, but if i'm not wrong, she's not really one who's known to be someone "nice". Not that i care, since she's nice to me, right? Wrong.

It's Orientaion Games' Day! We were to choose a game to play. I chose Captain's Ball. A lot of the other girls chose Treasure Hunt, while the guys chose Soccer and FloorBall. In the end, a lot of them went home and skipped it altogether. For the first round of matches, my class (SB) was playing against Kak Dee's class (KF). As i was playing i heard Wati cheering for me, "Baik ah Fiza!!". We won which was a surprise seeing that we were playing half-heartedly even though we seemed pretty enthu.

For the next round, we had to play against Wati's class, R1. We had been warned beforehand that they were pretty aggresive. And surprise......we won!!

We clapped and cheered and then realised that Wati and friends seemed really pissed. They kept glaring at us and were cursing loudly, "Pantat ah! Sial lah! Ape siaaakk!". (MUAAHAHAHAH!!)

My friends and i were taken aback at how seriously they were taking it. The student councillors then came to us and said there was to be a rematch between the 2 teams. WTF??

You want a rematch? Fine! So we had a rematch. The atmosphere in the MPH immediately changed. Most turned to watch us play. They were even more aggressive this time. We didn't give them face and played with our lives. Within 2-mins, we scored 4 and they only scored 1. We won again, and the whole MPH had witnessed it. They were still pissed and walked around with a blacker than black face, complaining to anyone who was willing to listen. When my team members were leaving the MPH, they were like, "Balik ah, balik ah!!"

Memang nak balik lah ni, but thanx for announcing our departure :-D

Apparently, they are retainees. So, i suppose they think that since they've been in the school longer than we have, they could be big-headed and walk around like bloody buffoons who owns the school? We may be first year students of a 2-year course, but you're 2nd year students of a...one-year course! We don't give a damn. We just smiled and couldn't be bothered. We are not gonna hate them tho, maybe pity. Get a life, please? So we don't have to waste our sympathy on people like you.

Ladies & Gents, this is what we call not having Sportsmanship and being immature. For God's sake, its an Orientation game! It's ridiculous how someone who had been all friendly and nice to you, suddenly looks at you with much hostility over a pathetic Captain's-fucking-ball game.

On the other hand, I am very proud of my class who had won quite a few prizes that day. And the fact that i could play 4 matches in a row! You see what going for Body Combat has done for me??

Okay people, I'm going back to our grandmother's kampung in Malacca tomorrow. Can't wait for school on Monday!!

later.

2005-06-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

Forget Good Charlotte. The Bravery is coming down on August 5th! Of course I am going! (God willing)

The Bravery

Live in Singapore

5 August 2005

Friday, 7.30pm

Stadium Green

$62

The punchy modern rock outfit the Bravery features Sam Endicott (vocals/guitar), John Conway (keyboards), Anthouny Burulcich (drums), Michael Zakarin (guitar), and Mike H. (bass). The New York five-piece got its start in early 2003. After playing its first gig at the Stinger Club in Brooklyn in mid-summer, the Bravery's post-punk-influenced dance rock was all the rage. A residency at Arlene's Grocery and whispers on the street eventually led the Bravery to a recording contract with Island Def Jam in the States and Loog in the U.K. The Unconditional EP followed in early 2005. Critics almost immediately trounced on the band. The Village Voice proclaimed the Bravery to be "New York's Official Next Big Thing" while MTV and Rolling Stone hailed them as an artist to watch. A co-headlining tour with Ash in the U.S. in spring 2005 coincided the release of the Bravery's self-titled album. ~ MacKenzie Wilson, All Music Guide

2005-06-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's my first day of school!

And i think i'm gonna love my classmates. Everybody's fun and sporting. Compared to the other classes, at least. I also think my class has the most number of people with simliar names.

2 Hafiz, 2 Hafizah, 2 Noraini

And what's the best thing about my class? None of those hardcore mats or minahs. They're friendly and nice people. While some are equally crazy :D The other hardcore mats and minahs in my school tho, makes me cringe. They seriously freak me out. I've never been in a place with so many of them in one place! I actually found myself in awe. Haha. You might as well call the Canteen a "Freak Zone". Coz when they're all congregating there, and so many of them together, i get freaked out. Especially when i was getting myself a drink yesterday, this girl at this round table nearby pointed at me and the rest of her friends turned to look. I wasn't scared, no. Just freaked out.

They're just freaky, you know? I've always thought to myself, "But they're just human, like you". No, no no no no. That was more of me trying to convince myself. These people don't even attempt to seem human. It's okay, i will survive. I'm sure they're not THAT bad despite those badly done eyebrows and tacky-coloured lenses. No worries, there's more to a person than an inch-thick 2-way cake on their face.

The weird thing is, even though they are so much like each other, they still look at each other with much animosity. What ever happened to "Smile, and be nice"? I don't think i have the strength to do a detailed description. I'm trying my best to adjust and get used to this new environment. And i like my classmates!

later.

2005-06-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

The gig was loads of fun. In the end, none of us helped out. Haha. Talked to Anthony for a while and he said "It's okay, i want you guys to enjoy the gig". If you insist! The bands were really good.

The Observatory sounded great live. I'd thought that their live performance wouldn't be as strong but they managed to do it great. Throb was awesome. Shahida liked them alot. And of course, Ugly in the Morning!! Just a l'il disappointed that they didn't play 'Wooden Dog', 'On and On' and 'Stupid 'A' Song'. Otherwise, they were awesome. Groovy babaayyyy.......

What amazed me though was that everybody, who were initially sitting down on their pink mats, actually stood up and moved to the front when Electrico was up. Local gigs often consists of rocking bands and dead boring audience who'd sit on the asses, moving only to shoo away mosquitos. For this gig tho, everybody stood up, some jumped (uhurm, me and gang) and when Ronin was up, there were moshing. Huge crowd too.

Okay, okay..local gigs are getting better. They won't be the most happening around yet, but slight progress is better than no progress at all, no?

later.

2005-06-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

Today has got to be the freakiest day ever.I reached home 2 plus and started cleaning up the house and then took a shower and got ready to meet up with Saha, Aini & Fendy, another guy i asked to help at the gig.*4 Then my Mom called to remind me that my grandma is staying over tonight! So i had to REALLY cleanup my room. That means no more clothes on the floor, make my bed PROPERLY, put aside my magazines/books/bags/make-up/hairsetting rollers/CLOTHES and everything else you can find all over the room. WHAT?? But i'm gonna be late! I called up AIni, told her i was gonna belate and asked her to msg Saha, and i msged Fendy.

By the time i was done, it was already so late. I decided to take a cab. Walked down to the main road, hailed a cab and made my way to Wisma Atria. Here comes the freaky part.

*Halfway through the taxi ride, along the expressway, i started getting all dizzy and everything around me was turning and swirling. My head hurt so bad, my heart was pounding loudly. Inside the cab had been so cold but i was sweating. My palm was sweating too which doesn't happen alot! If i had been walking i would've probably collapsed right in the middle of the street. I couldn't think straight, everything was unclear. I started to panic. The first thing that came to my mind was to take out my iPod and listen to the Al-Quran recitations. My parents were constantly on my mind. I was unconsciously saying my prayers audibly and the cabbie kept turning to look at me. Kept reminding myself, "Mengucap Fiza, mengucap..." Only God knows how i felt. I've never felt so scared in my life. Excruciating pain, been through that. I wasn't even this scared when going for my surgery 6 years ago. But this.....

I called Aini and told her to wait for me at the taxi stand and that i was panicking. By the time i reached there, Aini was already waiting for me. As soon as i got out of the cab, i couldn't stand up straight, what more walk straight. We sat down and i was sweating so much even tho the weather wasn't that hot. Even tho i wasnt as terrified anymore, i knew i needed to go home coz i felt so weak. Immediately, i dialled my Mom's number. --Sorry Mom, i didn't mean to make you so worried.-- My dad had wanted to pick me up, but it was peak hour and it would take him an hour to reach there. He told me to take a cab and he'ld wait for me downstairs. I called Fendy and told him to come up meet us at the taxi stand, then Saha arrived soonafter. After introducing themselves to each other, i told them they had to go ahead without me. Sorry guys!

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Maybe it was just the fact that i was at home with both my parents that made me feel better. Still dizzy and nauseous. The candy Aini gave me earlier helped, though. Then i lied down on the sofa and talked to my parents about what had happened.

My dad said ,"Mesti ada hikmah sebalik semua ni. Fiza selalu keluar tak pernah mabuk macam ni pun, kan?" There's got to be a reason why all this happened. You go out a lot but you've never felt like this before, right?

He went on to say, "Do not question why this happened. Do not be pissed (my term) that you did not get to go this gig. Maybe something would've happened to you if you had went ahead? God knows. What's important is that you made an effort to go there, you've even reached the place...but because of your condition, you came back home. You've been to so many other gigs, anyway."

My mom - "I'm glad you thought of God and your parents. Maybe HE was testing you..."

Maybe they're right. Just the other day my dad surprised me and asked me to read out some short surahs for him to hear. It's not enough to KNOW the surahs, it's also important to perfect your pronunciation. He corrected me here and there, but i passed. Alhamdulillah.

And then this...LA HAWLA WALA QUWWATA ILLA BILLAH.

Maybe with all that's happening in my life, new band, new school, new friends, new environment, competitions, challenges,...i have to be reminded to not forget Allah, to not forget my family, to not forget myself.

I hope i'm not freaking anybody out. I'm not an extremely religious person but i do my best.
Anyway, my dad had his weekly religious class, my sis still at work and my mom had Yoga. They didn't want me alone in the house so i followed my Mom to her Yoga class. It's her 2nd class and i think it's doin much good for her health...

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It's okay if i missed today's gig. Tomorrow's gig is gonna be more exciting. Im lookin' forward to see Electrico, The Observatory and Ugly in the Morning. Text'ed Fendy and he seemed to be having fun...

Tomorrow, Shahida, Hairul, Dinky, Nazreen & Aslam will be coming along.. *9

In the end, i'm bringing 8 people to help at the gig. So much for goin alone and making new friends...haha. It's okay. The more the meriah!

later.

2005-06-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

Anthony (the guy who organised Rock On Singapore) called again to ask if i'm coming down to the gig and helping them out and how many people i was bringing along coz they have to prepare refreshments. I told him i was coming and that i'll be bringing with me about 4 people on Saturday (my bandmates).

Initially, i had planned to go down to the gig myself *1, and make friends with other people I don't know. But then i thot, maybe i should ask someone to come along with me, just in case. I then asked my bandmates, they can only turn up on Saturday. I asked Shahida, Saturday. So i asked Saha, and he said OKAY and now its Saha and me.*2 As i was getting myself dressed to leave for the briefing on Thursday, Aini msged and asked me out. I called her, found out she's free and asked her along. So now it's Saha, Aini & me.*3 Met them at Orchard Mrt Stn. It was their first time meeting each other but they hit it off immediately. Great. Oh and all 3 of us were coincidentally wearing green!

Went down to Orchard Green, met Anthony, were told what we're expected to do the next day and we're off. Saha, Aini & Me. The Kecohrables. So damn freakin kecoh the whole night. Met up with Lily at McD's Shaw Tower. Last time i met her was last year! She dyed some parts of her hair red and it really suits her coz she's very fair. Kinda reminded me of Spiderman's girlfirend.

Ronin & Chou Pi Jiang did soundcheck today. Cool.

Rock On Singapore! Tomorrow!

later.

2005-06-15T13:53:00.000+08:00

Had another jamming session with the guys yesterday. Everyone was giving it their all and i was enjoying myself so much, eventho' my throat was hurting from singing the songs without stopping at all. I don't think i've felt so tired after a jamming session before. We now have 2 'must-play' songs for every jamming session. Lovefool & Behind Hazel Eyes. woohoooo!

Behind Hazel Eyes was the bomb! We played that so many times, and every time the song ended, one of us would go "one more time!". Don't think we got enuff of it. Haha...and there was this girl who stood to watch us for quite a long time, that she started to freak me out. I smiled at her anyway when i realised she's harmless.

After that we hung out at KFC and boy, these guys are a crazy bunch! and i thot I* was crazy?? They are crazy-er! We sat down to discuss bout lotsa things and suddenly Hairul & Dinky started makin fun of something and started laffing and i looked at them behaving so ridiculously (plus, Hairul's laughter is so damn bloody funny), me & Zijian started laughing along. Not at the joke tho, at them! Very merepek, but hilarious. And before you know it, everybody's face were red from so much laughing and my stomach was hurting so much!!
Then we went home....

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At home, i chilled at the living room, waiting for my parents to come home. And when they reached home, we talked about my band. I told them who were in the band, what kind of songs we play. Then my mom asked, "When will we get to see you perform?". Wah, onli 2nd jamming session ley... Then i hinted at my dad that i wanna continue my keyboard lessons. (I went for keyboard and organ lessons once, but that was so long ago!)

I don't remember if he realised how obvious i was and that i also wanna take up the electric bass guitar. He asked me to look around for a bass instructor before, but couldn't find a suitable one plus, need a lot of money for lessons and the bass guitar + amp. So, my dad said we'll discuss again soon coz they just had to pay for my Body Combat classes and my school stuffs. It's k, i'll wait.

I'm thankful to my parents for being very supportive. I still remember the keyboard my dad bought me when i was 5. That was my best birthday present ever! I was so happy. It may not be as big as those played by Ahmad Dhani, but it's still an electric keyboard nonetheless!

Then i reminded them that i'll be back late on Fri & Sat coz im helping out at the gig. I was expecting them to ask a lot of questions but all they said was, "Mmm. Jaga diri". How i wished they'd added, "We'll fetch u once ur done.." or "You can use the car if you'd like". I WISH! --eh cant wait to get my licence lei..5 mnths to go.--

I'm still thinkin bout how im gonna get home coz by the time we would be done, there'll be no more trains and no buses that goes to my place. There's the cab, but can u imagine how much the fare its gonna be?? i'll think of something...

later.

2005-06-14T02:12:00.000+08:00

14 JUNE 2005

The Foo Fighters album "In Your Honor" is out!

20 new songs on 2 discs. One Loud. One not so loud. Featuring the new single 'Best of You'.

Why aren't you screaming?

I'm screaming coz im fucken broke.

Aargh..their new songs are awesome! Go listen to the new songs at their MYSPACE account
NOW.

http://www.myspace.com/foofighters

Good Charlotte

2005-06-13T15:26:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte is coming to Singapore!

Good Charlotte - Noise to the World

12 July, Tuesday, 8pm.

Singapore Indoor Stadium

$69

I'm not a HEEUUGGEE fan of Good Charlotte or Simple Plan. These two bands are often part of the same sentence and being compared all the time. Honestly, i think they're both good but their music quite different what...so why u people keep comparing them all the time? Anyway, i've seen Simple Plan live and they were okay...got the crowd going. But i prefer Good Charlotte's style. I think GC's music is more edgier and...erm............(fill in blank with word that is a combination of Edgy, Fun and ROCKKINNN'.......).

Yeah, so i think i would go to their concert this July. Unless a better band is coming later this year than i would have to go that one instead. I have a quota for number of "expensive" concerts i can attend in a year. Coz my dad pay mah...if i go to every single concert, die lah like that. But the Good Carlotte concert is only $69 for free standing or sitting. I'll say that quite cheap for an International act at Indoor Stadium! Maybe coz they onli using half of the stadium. They've got new standing/sitting plan so, it should be interesting!

oh wait, it's Tuesday at 8pm! I have Body Combat. It's k i can miss one class. I'll have equal amount of workout at the MoshPit. hah. Did i tell u i'm at my fittest at rock concerts?...ask my fellow concert goers...

Check out http://www.sistic.com

later.

2005-06-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

My wish to be able to live in complete anonymity one day, may never be fulfilled. Especially if i'm staying put ( i need to get out of here!) in Singapore. Sure, it's safe and clean and politically correct (not that i'd knw) and yadayadayada. Singapore's great...but not when everybody knows each other. Where's the fun in that? At this rate, i would have to make "new" friends with everyone twice.

Why do i say that my wish may never be fulfilled? *sigh* Most Singaporeans would've probably realized by now that in one way or another, we are connected to that stranger sitting beside us through a mutual friend or two mutual friends or that GIRL is really your Mom's yoga instructor's son's basketball's coach's daughter. Oh and by the way, they're goin' out together. No, not the son and the daughter....The yoga instructor and the basketball coach! Kinda like a real-life Friendster. So if you wanna be friends with that cute guy in the train, make sure you're "Closely Connected".

I've had new findings recently, on how i am or others are strangely/ridiculously/"WHAT??"-ly/ (fill in the blank) -ly connected to one another.

The guys in my band has another band and when they showed me their pics, one of the guys looked familiar. Connection: That guy lives 2 doors away from me. 'Tis a small world after all.

This is my 5th year living in my current home. When we first moved in, my sister already knew this girl who lived a floor above us.They were from the same Secondary school.

A & B were classmates with my good friend Hid in JC. And now, the same two people are classmates with my best friend Shahida in Poly. 'Tis a small world after all.

After having gone through so much with Suhaila and being her classmate for 2 years, we only found out this year that our Great-grandmothers were SISTERS. That makes my grandma and her grandpa, cousins. Her dad and my Mom, second cousins. And she and i, third(?) cousins. We're of Chinese descendants too...'Tis a small world after all.

However, i don't think it'll be that bad just yet. Coz even though i've been living here for close to 5 years, i don't know my neighbours. 'Cept the family that lives right beside us. Other than that...lemme elaborate thru a conversation my sis n i had at 4am this morning.

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ME: Can u believe it? We've been living here for 5 years but we still don't know our neighbours' name. Not even our next door neighbour. They're simply "Apek" and "Nyonya". Try to imagine..."Hi, this is my neighbour, Apek and this is his wife, Nyonya."

(and then we started givin nicknames to identify our neighbours....at 4am)

Sis: Ya, and i've never seen that "PakCik MRT" (he works with SMRT) punya anak.

Me: Oh ya, he's the one that lives on the 1st floor right?

Sis: No lah, tu rumah "MakCik Post Office" (we've seen her uniform).

Me: Hah? Eh, i'm talking about the house beside rumah "Kakak Hospital" (seen her uniform too) tau. Yang tinggal bawah rumah "MakCik Ketupat-Lampu LapLip" (Hari Raya's over but the decor is still up).

Sis: Ya correct. The other side is that "Abang Motor" 's house. They just moved in.

Me: OH! That means that "Auntie PigTail" (she ties her hair in a pigtail) and "UncleSpectacles" got new neighbour liao....

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My neighbourhood (my block in particular) is a very quiet one. The neighbours don't talk to each other 'cept for the occasional "Hi", if they feel like it. I think it's coz the units are not the sort that are neatly arranged beside each other along one long corridor. At my block (divided into 2 sections), each floor onli has 4 units, distantly placed in it's own secluded corner and no windows in the corridor u can peek into (thank God). The building is of an odd "C" shape and in the middle of the "C" there is a "hill/garden" with tall coconut trees and surrounded by everybody else's plants. A lot of my neighbours have a passion for gardening you see..

Moral of the story: We may not live in complete anonymity, but we can pretend we do.

Life is sick. I feel sick. i wanna puke.............

later.

Amber and Me

2005-06-12T02:37:00.000+08:00

"Love me, love me...Say that you love me.." - Lovefool

I'm gonna cut the story short. Ladies and Gentlemen, Guys & Gurls...introducing,

Amber and Me

Hairul - Bass, Dinky- Drums, Zijian - Guitar, Fiza - Vox

Amber and Me, that's our new band's name. All three guys were my juniors in secondary school (one yr onli) but i've heard them play and thought them good, which was why i agreed to do vocals when they asked. Friday had been my first time meeting and talking to Dinky & Zijian. -- No, i wasn't a stuck-up senior back in school...Or was i? Oh, who gives. -- And i knew Hairul from Choir.

I'm not gonna go too much into details. Just that, for the band's first jamming session, it's satisfying. Impressive, in fact. Like seriously. We actually played two songs, Lovefool & My Favourite Game by The Cardigans, repeatedly with minimal mistakes like as if we've been practising that song for weeks! And when i shot them a "Do u guys know how to play Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns 'N Roses?", they could! Need a lot of brushin'-up but er wait...I'm not gonna praise them too much lah coz i think they read my blog and their heads are gonna BLOW-UP.

We ain't perfect yet, but im amazed. Amazed by a number of things, WHICH im gonna keep to myself. Keep up the good work but we're gonna work harder, right guys? I hear ya!

I like it that when we were discussing different songs and bands, they KNEW what song or band (most of it, at least) i was talkin' about...like "Celebrity Skin" by Hole. Don't they make you watch MTV in primary school? And they might've not known Zwan but at least they knew Smashing Pumpkins and that Billy Corgan's bald. Haha. Anyway, we shall see how it goes. Gonna keep a low profile for now...

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Phua Chu Kang - The Musical

Got free tix to the musical at the Indoor Stadium on Saturday. Had plans initially, but hey...the tix aren't cheap, and seeing that others had to pay $100/$85 to watch it at considerably good seats, i decided to go. There were four of us. Still got 4 more free tixs for another day's show.

So, how was the musical? Let's just say i wouldn't pay $100/$85 to catch it. I'm glad i didn't even think of it. In fact, i think you would've enjoyed more the musical we had when i was in primary school! $65 at Mandarin Ballroom WITH dinner. And cute kids (uhurm, uhurm) performing and dancing and singing on stage.

Overall, the musical was okay lah. Very singapore. Very patriotic. but i think it's not very kid-friendly. Examples..."Audrey Chee, the K.S. Kampung SLUT!" - Ah Ma's line. teehee. Moderately funny lah can.

ok i want to sleep. Do go to Rock On Singapore! this coming Friday & Saturday. There's gonna be bands like BhumiBand, Electrico, Ugly in the Morning, Ronin, B-Quartet and many more..

later.

2005-06-10T12:40:00.000+08:00

Support local Music!

www.rockonsingapore.com

17 & 18 June 2005

Orchard Green

(beside Orchard Mrt Stn)

6pm to 12pm

2005-06-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

i find blogging exhausting. but i have to blog coz i would like to remind myself of how my days have been wisely (yea right) spent. Yea, so i'm gonna blog for my memory's sake. My memory disappoints me at times...

The past week, i've been so busy. Don't get me wrong tho, i'm not complaining. Today has been the only day that i stayed home the whole day, so i'm gonna blog while i have time.

I shall start with Saturday--------------------------------------------------------------------------

Had a reunion with Suhaila & Hidayah. We watched Madagascar at Lido. Okay, the movie was funny lah, Hid & I were laughing so much at the beginning of the show. But i think it's really because of the 2 giggly girls behind us who started laffing the moment their asses touched the seats. The movie itself wasn't that great...okay for people who juz wanna watch a light-hearted movie, but it's not my kinda movie coz there's not much of a plot. We ate at Ayam Penyet Ria. Hid and Su's first time. I think i've brought almost all my close friends there, and they would all tell me that they loved it. The day ended with more walking and laughing and i saw this bag i really liked.

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My mom's youngest bro, my UNCLE was performing at a Singapore Street Fest gig at the Grange Road carpark opposite of Cineleisure and Youth Park. His performance was at 8 but he & his wife fetched me at 5 and we went to town first. He had wanted to park his car at the Grange Rd carpark first so as to cut waiting time BUT his sweet, little, okay not so little, young niece ( ME lah) wanted to go to Far East Plaza to go buy a bag she really liked, so we ended up goin to Far East because of her. After buying that bag, we had dinner at Es Teler and guess what? I juz found out that Es Teler & Ayam Penyet Ria are both under the same owner. And then my uncle went to meet his friends first, while my aunt and i went shopping.

Okay, let's fast forward to the gig>>>>>>>>>>

When we reached the Grange Road carpark, which i thought was an awesome place to hold gigs, we didn't see my uncle but saw his friends and went to sit with them. Only my UNCLE, his fren, Fira (whom my family calls Taupik coz he supposedly look like Taufik Batisah...haha), and this other guy called Ruslan were performing but alot of his friends from this music company he works with came to see them. Other than them, there weren't many people around, which was so disappointing coz there were two other shows goin on at Cineleisure and Youth Park simultaneoulsy. They played songs by Jimi Hendrix, Pearl Jam and Stone Temple Pilots. Oh you guys can catch them this Sunday at the same place, they're called Ziggies.

What i thought was cool though, was that a lot of these younger guys( 19, 20 yr-old ) knew my uncle ( 30 +), and a few of them came over to say hi and that they were performing. And i'm not talking bout those bands with MATS okay...i'm talking bout seriously talented and erm, quite cute guys. There's this band whose vocalist is from Philippines and my aunt told me that he's a Chef. He BAKES! He looks like a young Greg Uttsada, he sings in a PUNK band and he BAKES. How cool is that? His name is Bryan and my uncle and my aunt kept teasing him when he was performing and shouted "Brahim!"....Ngachok banget.

W hile walking back to the car, these 2 chinese guys came running after my uncle and scared the hell out of my aunt. They had just wanted to ask what guitar my uncle used and when he'll be performing again. My uncle also got a free Street Fest t-shirt which he gave to his beloved niece as a souvenir. YAYness!

I dun remember wat i did on Monday.

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Went out with Shahidah. First silly incident of the day:

I was in the train, Shahida was sposed to board the train at Dover. When we reached Dover, i didnt see her, so i stepped out called her and i waited outside the train. She told me she was inside the train which was gonna close the doors soon so i panicked and quickly told her to get out of the train and BOOM, i saw her got out of the train like as if she was thrown out! hahaha....

I bought new shoes!!!!! Not after this little girl wanted to pick up a fight with me for stealing her seat. She was so small and cute, but i needed to sit to try on the shoes. She them turned to me, frown and lifted her chubby hands. I juz stared at her like i would sumone my age. While Shahida stood beside me trying SO hard to stop herself from laughing, only to laugh even more.

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I like to remember the good stuffs so i shall not blog about what a bad day it was.

Anyway, my uncle was performing again and my sister wanted to go so i left home at 8pm to town. Saw them perform, clapped loudly (wrongly even....they havent finished performing and i clapped! haha so malu.) and i saw this guy who was a junior in sec school...He was alone. I wanted to smile at him but he seemed like he wasn't interested in smiling back so i didn't. But i think quite a few girls had a crush on him coz he's supposedly quite cute. He seems very cool now that he's so much taller...plus, he was at a gig alone. That should say something bout his self-confidence. Meaning, he's unlike those guys who loves travelling around in herds and being a nuisance in the public. Note to guys: Travel alone.

Dat's all for now. I feel nauseous. I think i've been staring at the computer screen for too long. I wanna puke.........................

later.

2005-06-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

You know what? I can really feel my fitness level improving! One thing's for sure, it's hard work. I've been pushing myself to workout 5 times a week which is something i never thought i could make myself do. Yesterday's Body Combat was great as usual! We had a wacky guest instructor and boy, you should see those muscles!! Did i mention the guest instructor is a lady?? I was afraid she's gonna be real fierce but she's turned out to be really lively and motivating. There were a few newbies too, including my sis. The class officially starts next week, so if any of you would like to join, its $98 for 12 lessons.

There had been no plans to leave the house today until Aini called to ask me out. I missed her so much and it's been ages since we last met. So we met up and went to the Esplanade. She had kindly warned me to be slack and casual. I rarely see her in slack & casual mode. We had plenty loads of fun taking pictures and hanging out on the Roof Terrace. There's now a garden kinda thing there, so we lied down on the grass. Serene sky ( no stars), great live music, beautiful breeze, we just let loose and chilled. We even took off our shoes and i taught her some steps from my Body Combat! Thank God it was dark. She's much older than me, but because she's smaller than me, i always feel so self-conscious. Silly me.

Uniquely Singapore!

later.

2005-05-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

What made big-time computer company Dell think that putting three giggly girls on TV are going to attract people's attention and get them interested in buying their products? You're selling computers, not Barbie! Clearly, i'm not the target audience.

So, i bought my uniform yesterday with Dee. It was crazy coz firstly, i couldn't decide on which colour i would most probably like to wear to school. There's 5 diff. colours for the top and 3 diff. colours for the bottom; skirt and pants. I already had a headache looking for shoes last week, and now my uniform too? It's been chaotic, what with the choosing of the colours and the size, and they were so MEAN! It'll do you no harm to be nice and tactful, you know? So i bought it all in a rush. I have to say tho, that the most comfortable piece of clothing i have for school, would be the PE Bermudas. i deliberately got it in a size bigger. i could sleep in it! Seeing that yesterday was also the first day of uniform sales, there was a LOT of people and some of these people may be my to-be classmates. Quite a few familiar faces actually...

So with a $100 worth of "shopping", Dee and i walked out of the school in the hot sun and got a cab almost instantaneously. And we thought, hey, it's our lucky day!

NOT.

The apek driver started to scold us for God-knows-what and when he saw our weird expressions, he started talkin bout how he's not a bad person. He's Weird! so all me and Dee could do was "oh...Eh?......ya....hmm...haha....". He talked non-stop bout his bank-manager daughters, the condo he lives in, his Goldlion outfit and how his friend told him he should be a cabinet minister. Seriously, he speaks as thought he's trying to imitate Lee Hsien Loong. "Problems are inevitable in this world". While i thought that was a rather interesting quote, the way he bullshitted non-stop only left me pissed.

And did i mention that yesterday is the mother of all money wastage? MY money wastage that is. I took 3 diff cabs yesterday when i told myself to take the train. And all these just for a bag? I hate myself.

Body Combat in less than 5 hours!! i can't wait!!

later.

2005-05-29T18:11:00.000+08:00

Guess who Shahida and i bumped into while shopping at Dorothy Perkins & Topshop at Suntec? Charlie from High 5! She's my favourite High-Fiver coz she's so cute and sweet. haha. i can't believe myself. i don't even watch High 5 but i know their names and some of their songs. "Hide your eyes and count to 10, ready or not....im gonna find you again.."

Teeheeee. Shahidah didn't even recognize her until i pointed it out. And it seemed like we were the only people in the shop who knew who she was. Something that took place after that totally affected our shopping trip, but i shall keep it between between Shahida and me *wink* 1, 2, 3, 4, High 5!

Do you people remember this lame teen malay show, Bara, last time? There was this guy who played a character called Ayie and is quite a good-looker. While Shahida and i were walkin outside Raffles City, we saw this guy in uniform standing beside a CISCO van. And guess who it was? It's that Ayie guy! Agaknya salah orang, but im positive it's him. i alerted Shahida and she was like "hey, he's cute..but who's he?". Soon after that, we saw someone who was a dead ringer for Ari Wibowo! And yeah, if you hadn't guessed it already, Shahida didn't knoe who that is either.

Anyhooo, our outing on Friday had been a blast. We both bought something from Dorothy Perkins. I got this top that Shahidah made me try on. That was one top i never thought i could pull off but i'm glad i decided to try it on coz i LURRVE it. Cool green, kinda like teal. In fact, i might just get one more in orange or purple. I'm goin back there tomorrow to get a bag i reserved. Yay.

laughing makes your eyes look small....so small....

"Average every day sane psycho..."

one more day to Body Combat!

later.

2005-05-27T13:32:00.000+08:00

Gavin DeGraw kicks ass! I'm gonna buy his album, Chariot. I will, I shall, I must! I fell in love ever since i first heard Follow Through a looong time ago. His voice is so husky & sexy. And his music's simple yet passionate and enlivening...heck, his music's awesome. Kinda like a livelier and edgier Matt Hales, but still with the piano. I'm enthralled. After Bo Bice sang I Don't Want to Be in the American Idols, im lovin' the song even more. Kinda disappointed that common-face, Carrie Underwood won instead of him. Oh well. Rezeki dia. Now, where's my Chariot?

Rob Thomas on the other hand, is disappointing. He was doin well with Matchbox 20. And then suddenly i see him without his sexy curls and he's going " I don't wanna be lonely no more....". Rob, what are you doing shaking your butt like Ricky Martin in your vid?! tsk. Well, at least you're better at it than William Hung. I'll give you that :)

later.
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I Don't Want To Be - Gavin DeGraw
I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

Chorus
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

Chorus

Can I have everyone's attention please
If you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

2005-05-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

Heeaaaaarrrggggghhhhhhhh!!! Body Combat is so fun!! Exhausting, but awesome.

Today, i went for my first Body Combat class at CDANS Country Club. It's so damn blurdy fun lor! The instructor is this pleasant guy and everybody else in the class was super-enthu. I was obviously the youngest, so those older ladies and some guys were like "It's gonna be very tiring but just think about having fun!" And it really was, have i mentioned that already? All the punching and jumping and kicking. I never knew i could kick that high! And the shouting is indeed a stress-reliever, for the stressed. For me, it was empowering. All the "HAAAAK!", "HEEYAAK!" and "HURGH!!". Unlike my previous Aerobics class, which made me feel like as if i was in P.E... In fact, P.E. was so much fun-er! And how could i forget, i got to wear my new trainers!

I'm not looking forward to the aching muscles but i'm psyched to attend the next class! In fact, im so excited to work out, i think im gonna go to the gym tomorrow. It's been a while since those people last saw my face, anyway.

later.
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"BODY COMBAT is a pre-choreographed Martial Arts based program focusing on endurance, flexibility and strength which is set to powerful and motivating music.

BODY COMBAT combines elements of traditional Martial Arts including Tai Chi, Karate and Kick Boxing to give you a great overall workout. The legs are strengthened and toned through kicks and shuffles and the upper body is trained through a variety of punches, hand and elbow strikes and defensive moves. And the athletic style moves will give your abs a workout you wouldn’t believe!"

2005-05-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

My head hurts! My family & I went shopping for my shoes today. Trainers, for school. I've decided to get it early and use it once in a while so they won't look so BRAND NEW on my first day of school.

So, we went from one shop to another and another and another. When i pointed at one i liked, my dad will go, "Too plain" or "Too flat" to another. I was getting so fed up, and my head was crying out for help from looking at gazillions of trainers. Nike, Adidas, Reebok, Asics, New Balance...

Anyway, we finally agreed on a pair by Nike. It has a pink swoosh on the sides. I know, so typically Fiza to choose something with pink on it. The more i look at it and the more i try it on, the more i LOVE it. And then, i wanted to see how it will look like with a skirt so i took out my secondary school skirt from deep inside my wardrobe and put it on. I never realized how comfortable it was! So i ended up spending the rest of the night in my secondary school skirt and my new trainers. Haha.

later.

2005-05-21T17:38:00.000+08:00

No matter how much older i get, how many times my computer has been rebooted, how many times i move house, how many people i meet, how many schools i've been to...I will never forget these songs. Don't ask why. When i can't find anything new to listen to, these are my top choice list of songs that i'll listen to. You should try listening to them.

Mmm Mmm Mmm - Crash Test Dummies. remember that one?
then there's...
Sex & Candy - Marcy Playground
Closing Time - Semisonic
Clutch - Shea Seger
Virtual insanity - Jamiroquai
House of Jealous Lovers - the Rapture

If anyone were to ask me what music genres i like in particular, i wouldn't have an answer. I'd rather not limit my choices in music. A lot of music artistes or bands find themselves classified/categorized under multiple genres/sub-genres, which is great coz it means wider selection for the masses...right? No? Take for instance, Gorillaz. Some say they're Hip-Hop & Rap, while some say they're Indie Rock. i think they're out to confuse us, that's all. Gorillaz rock my world. The animated band, that is. Feel Good Inc, anyone?

I also find that a lot of people choose the music they listen to, according to what they think (or they think others think) is cool or uncool which i find, ironically, uncool. Thus, the "What? You listen to ____?? EWW!". Blurgh, screw them.

I used to hate Dance/Electronic music because i thot onli "Ah Bengs & Ah Lians" listened to them. Not anymore. I like Electronic music, so sue me. But that doesn't stop me from listening to good old alternative/rock or any other types of music, for that matter. In fact, there are a lot of bands who play a fusion of electronic and rock. Can u hear the Hallelujah chorus? I can't, coz im Muslim :)

And then i hear people say, "It's not real music because they don't PLAY the instruments".

So, dangdut anyone?

Teeeheeeeeeee.

later.

2005-05-19T02:54:00.000+08:00

I love Tokyo!

I wanna go back there...Tokyo's great! I have an advice though, do not just smile at anyone, even if ur just being friendly!

Yours truly was taking a night stroll by herself near Ikebukuro. I was pretty confident at first, but when i bumped into this nice young lady who was also in the group, i decided to ask her along. So we walked, and walked and tried to NOT freeze to death beneath our layers of clothings. There were a lot of buildings and bright lights and funky Japanese people. We finally arrived at this particular park near our hotel that had a large empty, open area that was clearly built to hold regular outdoor events. There was a stage at one end, so that lady (i forgot her name..Sheila? Melissa? Charmaine?...nevermind) and i went to rest on the steps in front of the stage coz the benches along the sides were taken.

And then we chatted for while. It was about 11pm i think. After a while, an ang moh guy walked past us while looking at us in a freaky way. Not perverted or retarded...but more mysterious. Partly coz he was dressed like Sherlock Holmes with his long coat and his hat. Only thing he lacked was a magnifying glass. Honestly speaking, i was kinda apprehensive coz the guy looked at us weird like if we did something wrong he's gonna call up his gang and beat us up to a pulp. (We saw a lot of those african-american guys at a few junctions at Ikebukuro and i was told that a lot of gang activities occured there.) So, nervous and not knowing what to do, i smiled. BAD MOVE. The guy smiled back and proceeded to stand at a corner and continued staring at us. I alerted my company and we bolted out of there immediately.

I wonder what he was thinking? Surely couldn't have mistaken us for those kinda "girls" did he? We weren't dress sluttily enuff! In fact, i was a slob. But i dun think that's it...coz he didn't look like he had any perverted intentions at all. In fact, it felt like i was in a movie and a bad guy knew something i don't and he's been following me around, watching my every move. Ok Fiza, movie's over. time to sleep...Good Night er, morning everyone!

later.

2005-05-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

You know what? I miss my friends. It's true, I miss you people!

I was at Jurong Point (again!) today. This was what happened:

After having a quick (okay, not so quick) dinner at Banquet, we walked out of Banquet and tried to make it through the heavy flow of people...and guess who i found hopping and skipping from afar, like a little bunny all excited and red coming my direction? SUHAILA! I didn't know what came over us but when she reached me and i saw her, we couldn't stop jumping and squealing. Like those girls we always made fun of. Weird. Heck, we've always been weird. Anyway, I couldn't control myself, i really missed her! When we finally came to our senses and sober-ized from the excitement, we ended with pleasantries and promised to hang out soon. Girls.

After THAT, i bumped into Aishah! She was my classmate in Sec 1 & 2. If there was anyone who KNEW me at my most selenge-est pre-teen phase, it's her. She's still the same, but when i bumped into her and talked to her, after soo long...It hit me real hard. I really miss my secondary school friends. Where are you people?

While we're still at "Friends", i'm making an effort to stay in touch with most, if not all, my friends. i think i've had enough of "alone" time. Solitude is great, but too much of it can drive u nuts. I'm really looking forward to lunch with Leah next week! Where's a good place...Any suggestions? Oh yeah, and Shahidah for her haircut tomoro...

Later.
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"my best friends
are those who know the worst in me
and love me enough not to mind..."

2005-05-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

What can i say? i get bored easily...Very easily. Hence, the change in my blog layout.

Anyway, i just got a haircut just now. I meant to wait, and get my hair cut at Far East Plaza tomorrow but i could no longer tolerate the weight and thickness of my hair. As i was getting myself ready to go out with Shahidah yesterday, i just sat in front of the mirror...wax in one hand, hairspray in the other and my mind went blank. My hair was too thick and too heavy to be styled. I HAD TO HAVE A HAIRCUT. (that explains why my self-confidence had been pretty low the past couple of weeks. Where's my Crowning Glory?!)

So when my Mom suggested we went out for dinner, i suggested a visit to the salon. When we were at Jurong Point tho, all the hair salons were closed except for Jantzen. Damn. I was kinda looking forward to get my hair done at SandStorm. So i had no choice but to go to Jantzen and pray hard that Dino is working his shift tonight. Damn, he's not.

Unfriendly receptionist, staff using their phones openly while lounging merata tempat in the salon. If my principal had seen the state of the salon, she would've immediately pointed out what was wrong...EVERYTHING, except for the hairstylist who did my hair. I don't expect too much from them...i mean, they're not exactly Toni & Guy but Jantzen is pretty reputable considering that they have quite a number of outlets islandwide. but the service i got was disappointing. ok ok, maybe its because it was half an hour to closing time and they're tired...but still?

I need to shop...i don't care.

later.

2005-05-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

Anna Wintour. Love her or hate her?

She decided to finish her education at the age of 18 (my age!). In May 1997, she had revealed that her career had got off to a "shaky start" following that decision. But look where she is now. She's a woman of power in the fashion world. Just search for "Anna Wintour" in Yahoo! and you'll get so many articles on her. You'll also find that these articles speak of how powerful she is, while others hate the Cold-Hard Bitch that she is.

So who is Anna Wintour, you ask?

Anna Wintour was born on November 3, 1949 (6 days, 38 years earlier than my birthday!) in London, England. She is the Editor-in-Chief of Vogue magazine, a position she has held since 1988. A Vogue staff had once said (i think his name is William Norwich), ''At Vogue we worship one god. Her name is Anna Wintour." whoa. Some people love her because she has the power to turn a nobody into a SOMEBODY. "She's a fashion goddess!", you'll hear them say.

The book Devil Wears Prada was written about her except author, Lauren Weisenberg didn't actually use her name and the magazine Vogue. In the book, she's portrayed in a character named Miranda Priestly -- the all-powerful editor of Runway magazine-- , and her poor assistant, Andrea Sachs. Andrea's goal is to score a job with "The New Yorker" (that's a newspaper) and Miranda promises her a job, anywhere she wants if she can last a year at Runway. Little did she know that Miranda is the-boss-from-HELL.

My first time reading the book, I hated Miranda to boot - despite being impressed by the amount of power she holds- and felt that Andrea was an idiot but i couldn't really relate to it.

After a stint last year though, i now know what it's like to work for a motherfreaking BITCH. or in my case, BITCHES. The kind where the only thing that keeps you going is an image of you giving her a Flying Kick, pulling off her hair and leaving her with bald patches, and swallowing her whole! Thank you, Ally Mcbeal :)

A tribute to bosses from hell.

----------The End----------

While writing this post, my computer kept going crazy and i kept losing my almost-finished post. Damn it. BUT, i was determined to finish and publish this post even if i had to retype it repeatedly. This is for you, suckers!

later.

2005-05-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

My weekend was a BLAST!

Friday, i was out with Aishah. Have u been to the new Marina Square? It's not ready yet but it looks totally different! No longer "ULU". It's about time they had a makeover anyway, seeing that it's right beside the Esplanade.

Guess where i spent my Saturday evening? I was at the NIGHT SAFARI! I've never been there before and that was my first time. Night Safari-virgin no more! I had so much fun, i felt like an 8 yr-old! When we first stepped in, there was this platform near the entrance where you could take a snapshot, using your own camera,with an Owl, Python and a Serval for a minimum donation of $5.

So there's a guy with a Python around his neck on the "stage" and another guy who collects the donation and stamp your hand. I was so excited to take a pic with the Python but my sister hates (read: fears) snakes. So while i was quequing she came to me and said, "Fiz, why don't you ask the guy to help you take the picture. I scared my hand shake!". And that guy heard her and said, "Tenang aja, tenang aja." The way he said that, i assumed he was Indonesian working at the Night Safari. And then i heard him talk to other tourists then the way he spoke to me...he thought MY SIS & I were Indonesians! muahahaha....

The rest of the trip was really super fun, the tram, the Creatures of The Night Show, the walk trails, the suspension bridge. However, if you really wanna enjoy yourself, don't go with someone yang tak reti nak diam, someone who's afraid of the dark, someone yang ngada-ngada, someone who's.....u get the drift. I LOVE THE NIGHT SAFARI!!
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On Sunday, i went to A LOT of Malay weddings. Been a long time since i last went to one. That Sunday however, was a relatively star-studded one. At one of the weddings, we saw a lot of old-skool singers including Maria Bachok, Taufik Batisah's aunt.

Now, do any of you people know this old rock band from the late 80s-early 90s, "Last-Minute"?
You see, i've never actually heard any of their songs. At my grandma's old house, everytime i walk to into my uncle's room, there will be this big framed poster at the corner of the room. It's a poster of this old band "Last minute" and my uncle was the guitarist in the band. I didn't think much of it until last Sunday when i went to a wedding at Bukit Panjang.

I was at the wedding with my uncle, his wife, my grandma and my family. Then my uncle saw his old friend who came over to say hi to all of us. Then my mom asked,"Where's your wife?". And this vivacious lady came over and salam everyone in a "long time no see" manner. While all this was happening my sister was quietly narrating to poor, blur me.

Sis: This guy was in the band together with Ucu (my uncle).
Me: Which band?
Sis: Last-minute lah. Oh and that's his wife, Manisah. Don't pray-pray okay, last time she very popular....
Me: How come?
Sis: Coz she was the vocalist of Last-Minute!
Me: What?? You mean that's the lady in that poster ?? You mean Last-Minute was actually famous back then??
Sis: Well, they were one of the well-knowned local rock bands last time.
Me: So, Ucu was also popular back then??

I still don't really know how famous they were. Then yesterday, my parents has the radio station "RIA" on and they played this old song. And my dad went, "Ah there..this is Last-Minute lah. U knoe that lady we met yesterday? That's her singing..." As i listened on, the DJ mentioned that this song is to be released in a new compilation CD & VCD (DVD?) karaoke. That's why they are having this Rock Singing Competition every week at TKC.

hahahaha...my weekend was a BLAST!

Now, i'm going out with Shahidah.

later.

2005-05-06T11:30:00.000+08:00

Did anybody watch "UP CLOSE" last night on Channel News Asia? I still remember what that lady said about how when u spent too much time planning & thinking about something, you'll be scared to jump in and take a risk. or something like that.

Well, watching that makes me miss my Debating days. Being in the school Debate Team was one of the memorable experiences from secondary school. I got to represent my school in all 3 rounds. (If not for biaseness on the organizer's part, we could've won that particular round, u suckers!)

Firstly, coz all who were in it were INVITED to join. There were only 11 of us, and we had debate pratice almost every single day with our Debate Coach, Mr Loke. This is one cool guy i tell you! He's crude and vulgar, he's loud & blatant and he's a good debate coach! He's hilarious but he's so mean that you hang on to anything good that comes out of his mouth. And when he praised me once, it really touched me and made my day.

Mr Loke, we miss you! We would stay in school and discuss & talk & debate until the school attendant would come chasing after us, wanting to lock the school at 7pm. haha, and thanx to him...we got to meet up with his Japanese debating students, and got to meet people from all over the world during the World Debate Championships 2 years ago. i didn't really believe you could be good-looking AND smart until i went to that. (not trying to say im smart :P ) Maybe its coz all the good-looking (not so smart) were mingling wif the smart (not so good-looking) ones. gosh, there were Orlando Blooms and Elijah Woods and other cute actor & actress lookalikes. And all the diff. langs and accents. Did we feel left out? YOU BET...in our own country at that.

Anyway, i'm going out with Aishah.

later.

2005-05-05T11:27:00.000+08:00

it's raining! cool weather at last. but i still love the sun nonetheless. As hot and sweaty and melekit as u get, the bright Sun never fails to give a cheerful feel to the day.

I think it's a growing trend to post Hate-Tags. I know of quite a few people whose blogs have been bombarded with Hate-Tags. Itulah kan orang-orang ni..terlebih masa sampai dah takda kerja menyusahkan hidup orang lain. What inspired the Hate-Tagger to say those things to the recipient, anyway? It cant all be the Hate-Tagger's fault, can it? Takkan takda ribut, takda angin tiba-tiba aje terasa nak memusnahkan ketenteraman orang lain, kenal atau tidak? They probabyl feel "menyampah"/"meluat" when reading the blog and feel tempted to say sinister things to hurt si Sang Blogger.

sigh. Dia punya suka lah dia nak cakap apa yang kau susah tu kenapa?

However, the blogger shouldn't be so eager to get all defensive and start rebutting and counter-attacking si Sang Hate-Tagger. There might be truth in what si Sang Hate-Tagger said eventho it wasn't expressed in the most polite way. Maybe si Sang Blogger is really sombong in real life and has hurt feelings of many unsuspected acquaintances.

Some blog-readers were probabyly exasperated (or jealous?) to boot when si Sang Blogger tu kononnya, "bragging". Hmm, is it wrong to be happy with what you have? Maybe you can call it "Bragging" if you're forcing people to read your boastful posts in the blog...but i'm pretty sure most people read blogs out of their own accord. which simply means that you can leave the blog if you're not happy with it..

In other words, i can talk about Dewa as often as i want to and you can't stop me :)

Maybe i should start bragging about something and see if i get a Hate-Tag...to up the atmosphere of my blog, ya know? But i've nothing to brag about. No killer looks. No highflying job with bucketfuls of moolah (one day, insyaAllah. hehe). No Prada, no Gucci. but im thankful for what i already have. Great family, great friends. And im contented with the way my life is but im gonna work hard to make it even better. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

later.

2005-05-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

i know the Dewa Australian Tour was long over but i love this poster and im putting it up as the main image...For now.

If you want to see pix of Dewa's recent concert in melbourne, you can check out this guy's fotopage

http://jasmanharis.fotopages.com .

He also has pix of Sheila on 7 concert at the same place.

Hope he doesn't mind that i linked up his fotopage.

later.

2005-05-04T03:27:00.000+08:00

help.

i can't seem to be able to fall sleep. i think sleeping and waking up early requires some kind of skill or talent that i lack. It takes a lot of effort to fall asleep and the it's the same thing when it comes towaking up. I gotta admit it...i'm no morning person but i luv early mornings precisely bcoz im rarely ever awake to relish the morning fresh air and the rising sun. This is gonna be really hard when i start school...I'm gonna have to wake up at like, 6 in the morning coz i take eons to get ready. 6?? boy this is gonna be tough. i didnt think it was anything to worry about until that day when i asked my granma y she never asked me along to the airport to fetch my aunt. She said, " Coz i know u can't wake up early, that's why i never asked".

C'mon, it cant be thaaaat bad? Well, i've realized that it IS that bad as my friends & family have never failed to make it clear to me...

"Fiza, don't be late tau....i'll call u tmr morning and wake u up!" - said Friend A.

"I've set the alarm clockS for you. Remember to go to the bank tmr...don't be late!" -said Dad.

argh.

ok ok i'll deal with it.

as for now, i can't sleep and i've changed the video. Coz everytime i open up my blog, the video will start playing automatically and the guitar intro in the Foo Fighters vid is very the teramat memeranjatkan. So Fiza has changed the vid to Bjork's Oceania.

For the clueless ones, the "j" in Bjork is pronounced like a "y". Thank you very much. So please don't come to me and say, "Hey Fiza, that song by BJORK is really nice", like as if ur talking about some endangered bird i've yet to learn about. BJORK. hurhurhur.

later.

2005-05-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

ok i just got back from Malaysia yesterday. and i managed to stabilise my head.

kampung was so super fun. my big family, my uncles, aunties, cousins and both my grandneneks were there. it was so jolly! my uncle cracked crazy jokes the whole time and everyone was laughing out loud sampai sakit perut. it didnt matter tho coz the neighbours
weren't close enuff to be able to hear & complain.

on the 2nd night, there was a blackout and it was pitch black! but we placed candles all over the house and we survived. it was fun-er than the blackout in Singapore! haha..being in the middle of a blackout in HDB flats is one thing..but this time it was a blackout in a kampung that is surrounded by the forest, lots of trees, deserted little road and many noisy people. Thrilling indeed.

We also went to KL...and everyone was so kecoh. We took the Monorail & the LRT and the Komuter. The Monorail was SO SCARY. it was like riding on a rollercoaster, the track was super narrow, and it was going so fast. I was so typically tourist with my digicam snappinng pictures whenever possible. The kecohness was mortifying but it made our trip memorable.

What i hated about the trip tho, was the fact that out of so many days in a year, we had to be in KL on the 1st of May 2005. The day that PeterPan had a concert in Planet Hollywood KL at 4pm, and at the same time and place, the tix for the Dewa concert was being sold.

So what's so bad about that? the fact that i was there in KL and i could actually go and at least get the tix....then it hit me, I'M NOT GOING TO THE CONCERT.

i was devastated when i first found out that i couldnt go. Got over it eventually. And now, im convincing myself that it's okay if i'm dun get to go to this concert. Then i watch the short video i took of their concert in Singapore and i feel better.

Anyway, i brought home a great souvenir. This Malaysian mag, ROTTW. Dewa is on the cover! There's also a few page spread about their concert in Singapore and a magnificent poster of them. Bliss.

later.

(i had the soundest sleep at kampong. been a long time really..and no mosquito bites!)

2005-04-29T10:50:00.000+08:00

this is crazy. Ah..i dunno what to say, i dunno what to do. i should've prepared myself. what was i thinking? was i that naive? i should've sensed it. I may not be able to make it after all. im goin crazy juz thinking about it. this is unfair. this is so unfair. why? bloody fuck. urgh. i think im gonna quit blogging. There's no point. Bye people..this is probably the last you'll hear from me.

Wait, u bitch why are you being so childish.

no im not being childish...juz more emotional than the average. im emotionally unstable. and i never asked for it. damn. why? bloody hell. urgh.

Fuck it.

Now, get out of here. Now, i said....GO! GET OUT!

2005-04-29T04:21:00.000+08:00

Dewa

Live At KL Tower

28 May 2005

8pm

You're crazy for thinking that I won't be going. I'm crazy because i AM going. In fact, i'm going down to KL this weekend to get the limited tickets. Harap doakanlah agar perjalananku selamat. Amin.

Word of the day: Crazy

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2005-04-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

i-sha>> Thank you so much for teman-ing me to the registration yesterday. I really appreciate it. Really. And the talk we had at the cafe was so enlightening. Now, how many people can you just sit down with and just continue talking for hours about anything under the sun? We weren't even talking about cute guys. It was all Politics. Wasn't it? *wink*

shahidah>> I had GREAT fun today being all "tai-tai"-ish while everyone else is either at work or school. The Ayam Penyet was really nice...and "30plus" is our secret, you hear me? I can't remember half the things were laughing about the whole day...but i do remember a lot of laughing.

People...Holidays are coming. Enjoy it while it lasts. Don't worry bout me... :)

later.

2005-04-25T04:40:00.000+08:00

Here's an advice for students who wants to ace the Malay language examination but are lazy to read: (disclaimer: At your own risk.)

Listen more to songs by Indonesian Bands.

During my O level year, i had to sit for a Mock Malay Paper. As usual, there's that section where they provide you with a word and you're supposed to create a sentence with it. Unfortunately, my Malay writing ain't the best around and this section has always been one of my weakest.

I was reading thru the section and one of the words given was "Sejenak". If you listen to Sheila On 7, you'd know that they use this word quite a lot in their songs. I was so excited coz i actually knew what it meant and was able to create a perfect sentence! and, surprise suprise! When we got back that paper, my sentence was the MODEL sentence. Can u believe it?

You can choose to not believe me but, im confident enuff to say that my malay writing skills improved and was very much influenced by the music i was and still is listening too. I think the Indonesian language is a bit more refined. The songs inspired me to be more expressive in my compositions. However, i only got an A2 for my O levels. So if you wanna get an A1, i suggest you do some reading as well. And oh, how can i forget...Lots of practice!!
(If you wanna do well in English, READ. There's no escaping that...READ, READ, READ...it's great coz u get to choose books that YOU like. So get on with it.)

A lot of people say that Indonesian modern music is as good as International standard..which is why you see a lot of them performing in Australia, America, Europe & Japan. And i couldn't agree more. In fact, i think they're at a standard of their own. The music is beautiful & deep. They pay detailed attention to the music arrangement, beautiful orchestration and they're unafraid to be experimental. There's a song for almost everything and the "Love" theme has been potrayed in so many different ways that there's no getting enough of "love". Ok that's it...im getting carried away. I'll continue tomorrow. There's almost no stopping me once i start talking about Indon bands...really.

later.
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(i wish i could show you the music video for this song. it's Breathtaking...)
Song: Hitam
Band: Padi

Oh jiwaku
Di manakah aku kini
Kau bawa aku melintasi tempat yang tinggi
Oh tubuhku
Mengapakah engkau kini masih membisu
Tak kunjung bicara padaku
Oh, ceritakanlah padaku
Apa yang mengeruhkan hati dan jiwaku
Tolonglah,
Kau tuntunkan aku lagi
Agar ragaku menyatu bersama isi jiwaku
Penuntun jiwaku
Luruskanlah hatiku
Seandainya aku tahu
Apa yang akan terjadi nanti
Aku masih terus melayang
Bersandingkan langit Hitam
Masih melayang
Terus melayang

need i say more?

2005-04-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

PDA. public display of affection. u know, i've always told myself to be open-minded. Singaporeans are often too uptight & conservative...so a little PDA is tolerable. HOWEVER, after a particular incident in the train on the way home today, I feel that people who perform PDAs should realize that more often than not, their erm..behaviour tend to make the people around them feel uncomfortable. i mean honestly, what do u expect us to do? Watch? er..no thank you. And it doesn't help AT ALL, that the lighting in MRTs are so damn freaking bright AND that they were hugging & nuzzling each other while leaning on the freaking pole!
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i was out with Shidah juz now. Was at her place then we were off to the big Liu Lian, The Esplanade and took a lot of pictures. But hey, we weren't the only ones. There were like two other groups near us also taking pictures non-stop. With digicam obviously. Hail Digicam. So i guess that corner can officially be named "Camera-Whores Corner". Had lots of fun with her...in fact, sometimes i forget that we're cousins. HEY....Shidah....we're cousins!!
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I think i'm addicted to Iced Milo. Is that bad?...i think it is, because of high sugar content even tho i barely add any sugar. Seriously tho, i can not eat the whole day and juz have 1 or 2 cups of Iced Milo. Im a freak. I knew it...

I suck at HTML. i need help...juz look at the PEOPLE & ARCHIVES boxes at the side. can u see that something is wrong? well, u bet it's screwed up and i dunno how to fix it. so to my friends who hav asked me to link them up and cant see the link, im so sorry. im gonna try and do something abt it okay?

later.
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Song: Posesif
Band: Naif

Ku ingin tau, kau harus mau
Ku ingin kau begitu agar kau tau
Jadilah engkau milikku selalu .. utuh
Tanpa tersentuh .. cuma aku

Bila ku mati, kau juga mati
Walau tak ada cinta sehidup semati

Jadilah engkau milikku selalu .. utuh
Tanpa tersentuh .. cuma aku

Mengapa aku begini ..
Jangan kau mempertanyakan

Bila ku mati, kau juga mati
Walau tak ada cinta, sehidup semati

2005-04-22T17:48:00.000+08:00

Ahmad Dhani, why do you have to be such a fuckin genius?

Why do you have to write such good songs? Wait, they're not even good! Blurgh...they're Stupendously Marvellous. I hate you coz i go head over heels everytime i listen to your music. And you Once (pronounced On-chur; silent r), why do you have such great vocals huh? Why, you tell me! Not only are you a good vocalist....you're also a qualified lawyer?? Damn it.

And people who know me would know that i don't like to praise anything or anyone too much. I hate you Ahmad Dhani, coz u started this band called Dewa. And i hate this band coz they always make me do just that. Praise you non-stop. You think it's fun?? huh? u think i like praising u and keep telling my friends to listen to you? You think it's easy for me to wanna play your Cd over & over again in the morning?? Easier said that done. It's such torture singing along and jumping along to the infectious beats. And it's not just ONE album. you just had to have 7 albums. What have i done to make you do this to me? Why??

I love Dewa. (for the lost ones, Dewa is a renowned Indonesian Band.)

To my friends, pls click on the following link and watch this video by this wretchedly favourite band of mine. http://www.indonewschannel.com/DewaSayapPatah.php
And don't you dare question my choice of music. You hear me?

later.
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Sayap-Sayap Patah - Dewa

Sayangku ku mohon tetap disini
Temani jasadku, yang belum mati

Rohku melayang, tak kembali
Bila kau pun pergi
Meninggalkan yang terbaik
Bagi kita semua

Ku coba kembangkan sayap patahku
'Tuk terbang tinggi lagi diangkasa
Melayang melukis langit
Merangkai awan awan mendung

Ciptaan: Ahmad Dhani

2005-04-22T06:25:00.000+08:00

i managed to edit the main image. Sadly tho, it left behind an unsightly patch on the lady's hair. So i decided to place the title of my blog at the exact same spot. and tadaa....what do u get? An absolutely remarkably bad cover-up job. well done fiza! hey at least it beats having the words "Getty Image" on the lady's orange bushy hair. maybe her name is getty....Getty & Betty. Getty & Betty at the jetty....waiting for Hetty. haha. i think i had too much iced milo.

later.
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Oh.. masih ada Belenggu ruang cinta
Meresap kini di dinding zaman
Mencoba - coba kikis naluri
Agitasi murahan yang ada lagi
Mohon acuhkan Palingkan muka

Oh.. memang dunia Buramkan satu logika
Seolah - olah hidup kita ini
Hanya ternilai sebatas rupiah

Dengarkan manusia yang terasah falsafah
Sesaat katanya itu bukan dogma

Cukup Siti Nurbaya - Dewa

guys with facial hair.

2005-04-22T02:58:00.000+08:00

one post before i try to sleep. I was looking thru some music videos and stumbled upon Foo Fighter's -Times Like These-. i still remember the first time i watched the vid a looonngg time ago in this cab which had tv. However, my fave vid of theirs will always be -Learn to Fly-. it is hilarious to the core and dave still looked young and clean then. you have to check it out....he acted as the lembut cabin crew and the heeeuuggggeee lady who couldnt fit into her seat and this teenage girl who wore braces. i wonder if kurt cobain would succumb to such atrocity if he was still alive and do the same for nirvana. highly doubt it...

Anyway, i put up -Times Like These- video on the blog. Watch it and then say after me, "Dave Grohl is the sexiest man alive." Especially in the -Walking after you- video. Just think about it, not many guys can carry off a moustache as well as him! i guess taylor hawkins (the drummer) realized soonafter that it worked for dave so he grew facial hair too..and SWOoOoOoNNNN!!! ok ok fine, "Dave Grohl & Taylor Hawkins are the sexiest men alive".....for now. Constantine's catching up..

i spose there's just something about guys with facial hair. especially cute guys with the GOATEEE. another swoon...haha. c'mon gurls, there has got to be at least ONCE when a guy caught ur attention bcoz of the sexiness that was oozing out of his erm...goatie. im serious! look at Marcell. Marcell with goatie & Marcell without goatie. which would u prefer?? of course it's gotta be him with the goatie! but hey, not all guys can pull it off. Look at Once, pronounced On-Chur with silent R, of Dewa. He looks awesome all clean and shaved. Now imagine him with facial hair.....AAAAAHHHH!!! ya ampun...so the very not sexy one!

ok enuff about guys & facial hair. Don't you think Taylor Hawkins is a dead ringer for Kurt Cobain?

later.

2005-04-22T02:21:00.000+08:00

U knoe what? I think this is IT....i can juz feel it. This is THE blog skin. As said by Suhaila, "Fiza, it is so you. Pls don't change it". I thot that was sweet coz i happened to really like this blogskin. Then she juz had to add, "You wanna knoe what i think of Fiza?". She said i was annoying & scary coz i scold ppl a lot. NOT TRUE ok. i may be a little annoying but i do not scold ppl a lot. she's just joking, of course. (u better be!!) coz everyone knows how irritating & scary she is! (j/kidding...u ppl can still take jokes rite?) Haha...Suhaila, juz admit it. ur jealous of my blogskin! :-P dun worry i won't hate you! u can come and look as often as u like. heh.

Ok back to the blog skin, i think the colours are perfect. Big space for the posts, black bckgrd, funky colours. yyayyy! And then the main image juz had to have the words "Getty Image" proudly sitting at the top! *sigh* im gonna do something about it of course. Not yet...but i will. U guys are juz gonna hav to deal with it for now. And wen i say "u guys"...i was really talking bout me. *sigh*

Fiza, deal with it!

2005-04-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

i was watching Amazing Race juz now...i think dis is one of my fave episodes. If onli Brian & Greg's still in the race! Anyway, in today's leg of the race, Meredith & Grecthen was named the oldest couple to have gone that far in the race!! They were the Fourth to arrive, right before Lynn & Alex who were surprisingly last. Wow im so proud of Meredith & Gretchen..i think they're really sweet & cool. They've been the underdogs yet never gave up even tho' their stuffs got confiscated last time and Meredith had to make do with carrying his stuffs in a garbage bag, and that's after Gretchen fell while in the cave and injured her head and had to continue the race with a bandaged head! You go grandatuk & grand-nenek!! i may not be ur grandcucu but im stil proud of u!

Uchenna & Joyce chose to do the Fast-Forward. After such a long journey, they found out that their task was to get their head shaved! Uchenna was already bald so it was up to Joyce who had thick long hair. I expected her to say no like the Models/Couple group did last season...but she didnt! She said, "Let's do it!". It was so heart-wrenching!...she covered her face and cried & her husband kept saying "i'm sorry". lucky for her tho', she looks nice bald. i guess its coz she's african-american. What people will do for money, huh? nonetheless, im impressed by her gung-ho-ness (got such word or not)...ok her enthusiasm and spontaneity, unlike that couple in the last season. Go joyce! Finally Rob & Amber are not in the first place. They were Third. HAH.

And then before amazing race, there was Eye for a Guy 2. it's so much better than the first season with that cinonet (pronounced: chee-no-net) gurl. so tak lawa. mcm lah fiza tu lawa sgt BUT as a viewer it is my obligation to also be critic. i didnt watch it at all lah but it was obviously a flop! EFAG 2 is far better. Better gurl, and better guys. At first i thot Shan was the best lookin...but by then of the show, i liked Howard the best coz of his personality. Surprise...so did Denise. if i could vote off 2, i'd vote off Jeff (cocky tak kenal tempat) & james (tak kenal tempat). james was so WEIRD!! like....hello are you okay? it was obvious then that they put him in the show as a joke. no wonder he was rated no.10 out of the 10 guys. and it was so funny when that one guy tried to impress Denise Keller and said he listens to Depeche Mode..but he pronounced it wrongly...Dee-pah-chee. HAHAHAHA. watever lah.

Anyway, checked out other ppl's blogs and i think mine is so under par. I'd say it's due to lack of experience. I wrote my first official post in January 2005! (check out Archives.) it's probably gonna be worse when i start school.

Goin out with Shahidah tomorrow, i knoe im supposed to go sumwhere on Friday but it's currently not in remembrance, then Shidah on Saturday.

i have nothing to wear.................................

Happy new year?

2005-04-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it? It's going to be the end of April..and then it's goodbye April and Hello May. That's incredibly fast! I still have some leftover New Year's spirit in me that makes me wanna pop up to an unsuspecting stranger down bukit batok and go "Happy New Year!!!" and spray those ribbon thingy. And i still have the biggest urge to scream "Happy New Year!!" at the top of my lungs when i hear somebody counting down...Like say, an aerobics instructor:

"Now to your left.....6..5..4..3..2 and..1..."

ME: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

hey..maybe i should try it out and see the various reactions..haha. man i missed April Fool's Day!

Anyway, if u've been checking out my blog the past week (i highly doubt it)...u'll realize how many umpteen times i changed my blogskins and the links. Im juz gonna stick to this one for now coz its the closest i can find to "not bad". I have a problem tho..im no blog expert so im pretty clueless with all these HTML & links (im practically immune to them). Can somebody explain to me why in the world is my Archive link so damn freaking small? Anybody?......

2005-04-13T11:25:00.000+08:00

To my friends who are reading this , i'll be starting school on 20th June. i thot i'd juz type it here so i dun have to repeat it each time i bump into sumone. I'm goin to Clementi Ite. yeah, SURPRISE! im going to Ite. i have to say its a very tough decision to make. It took me a year! I'm glad i made it, though. I have been getting quite a number of weird if not negative responses from some people.

Person: hey Fiza, so what are you doin now?
fiza: i'll be going to Clementi Ite.
Person A: (trying really hard not to let mouth drop open to the floor and settled for "a little
shocked" but still remained cool) Really? How come? Do you really not have other
options? Are you sure you wanna do this? But why? You can go poly what...eh i
heard that school got a lot of Minahs u knoe....
Person B: (silence......) Oh. (silence....)That's cool. (silence....) ok...good luck.
Person C: WHAATTT????? Are you crazy??? You want to go ITE??? WHY????

Of course i also get very encouraging responses. And i really appreciate it. My family have been very supportive from the start. I've talked to my close friends about this over & over again. The only reason why a lot of us think that ITE is a so-called "bad" place to go is because when we were in Secondary school, being in the 2nd Express class meant that we were supposed to aim to continue our studies in JC or Polytechnics, which was what most did of course. So the teachers would go, "Class, if you pass your O levels, you can go to the JC or Poly of your choice. But if you fail badly then the only choice you have is (with ominous background music...jeng jeng jeng) ITE!"

You see? Ite was pretty much a taboo issue. Nobody speaks of it unless they're threatening someone who's not working hard for their Os. That also explains why i knoe NUTS about life in ITE. I hav friends who failed their Os but would never go to ITE no matter what. I got the hint that it's coz its gonna affect their reputation and "social status". You knoe....those uppetty people with noses higher than the sky? yeah..well, if ur so good you wouldnt have failed ur Os in the first place. and as for the mat & minah issue. well...lets juz say im keeping my mind open. They're still human after all. Even though a lot of my frens voiced their worries for me "Fiza, what if u turn into a minah"...haha. I heard somewhere that Clementi Ite's reportedly known as a "Chic Heaven". Fiza, get ready to be an outcast :)

For your information, i did NOT fail my Os. i admit im not the most studious in my class where people dun care whether u pass or not, but it was how many distinctions you got that matters. However, i did lack a credit. And so the courses offered to me were the ones i weren't interested in. So instead i took up Hairstyling!! i went to a hairstyling school in town for about 6 mnths. It was also like a salon so we got customers to practise on. mainly tai tais & expats...imagine the tips we got! ooh yeah! i got to go to posh seminars, fashion show, schmooze with who's who.

ok ppl, stay tuned to find out more about my experience in ITE!

2005-04-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

I am still experimenting with new blog skins and whatever bullshit. This blog is all screwed up right now so...yeah...what do they usually put it as? Oh yeah....Under Construction. Watever....juz dun stay around here , will ya? Go away and come back later...or not at all. Peace. Go..........SHOO.....

update blog regularly

2005-04-01T13:50:00.000+08:00

i've decided that i should try blogging as much as possible so that i can keep track of what i've been doing..

Its entering April and if u ask me what i've been doing this yr...i'll tell u i went to the Dewa concert. i dun really remember doin a lot of stuffs....but i dun really remember being bored and staying at home, doin nothing either. So what HAVE i been doing?....

Fashion Fest

2005-03-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today had been rather interesting. i was supposed to meet up with my sister's friends from Brunei at Paya Lebar and catch BhumiBand at the Konsert Hanyut. The thing is after the concert she wants me to go my way and so she can go off with the Bruneians. So i asked some friends out but most of 'em cant make it coz
a) gotta study for exams
b) outta town
c)parents not too happy bout them goin out in the evening
d)yadayadayada.

When im not free, so many people ask me out....but when i ask them out, no one seems to be free. Isn't it ironic.

So let's see, Shidah had to babysit at the last min. Suhaila, parents. And then i asked Aini, who then told me she's goin to JB with Helmi and wants to gimme tix to the Fashion Fest @ The Tent on the same day. Great! Not only is everyone too busy to go out with me, i now have tix to go to see a fashion show AND no one to go with. But hey lucky me, Kak Sarah msged me in time and told me that she could make it. It's cool coz we're both in fashion and stuff. (She can be a model herself, if not for the fact that we both talk alot and are very down-to-earth...i wouldn't have dreamed of asking her coz its gonna make me feel super self-conscious.)

So, yay! Im goin to the fashion show after all! What to wear? Gosh i dun even wanna think about it....even tho i felt good about what i was wearing. i still felt that Chinoiserie was kinda passe. i was juz afraid that sumone might come up to me and say "Chinese New Year is over, dah-ling..." But i wore it anyway right? the eff with what people think.

So i was all dressed up, met Aini to pick up tix, went to Paya Lebar to meet my sis. And then rushed off to Ngee Ann City to meet up with Kak Sarah who was late! The fashion show started at 6 but we got into The Tent at bout 6.30. So we got to catch FCUK but missed Versus. After that we left the Tent and decided to go somewhere to grab a bite. While walking slowly to Pacific Plaza, we saw the frontman of Disagree (the Malaysian band that did Crumbs)...Kak Sarah suggested taking a picture with him coz i brought my DigiCam but we were pretty hesitant. Yadayadayada....the guy's probably a mile away by then.

The rest of the night was all talk & shop..and more talk & shop. Tired & sleepy....home sweet home.

2005-03-08T07:42:00.000+08:00

bosan...

im bored.

and im getting tired of blogging. dun ask me why...

got a lot of interesting things to talk about..things that has happened...but i cant be bothered to type 'em out.

so bye.

u can check out my fotopage http://purpleflower.fotopages.com

bye.

2005-03-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

Dewa: Atas Nama Cinta 2005 (Singapore)

I have never been so awestruck in my whole life. (or have i?)

I've so much to say about this "singapore-history-textbook"-worthy day but i'll talk about the concert first.

When the gates were finally opened, I was the FIRST person to step into the Fort Canning Park. I proudly made my way to the VIP enclosed section and strutted straight to the front. I was right in front of the stage (behind the barrier)...juz me alone and the stage. My heart pounded like mad...this is it, I 'm goin to see, listen, feel & witness DEWA live right in front of my eyes...LITERALLY. WOW.

Then the other fans started coming in and killed the moment. HAH. btw..it was super humid and cloudy. In the meanwhile the three of us, my sis, me & suhaily sat down...conserving our energy for later. Sarah Sechan then came on to hype up the crowd by gettin ppl to ans qns to win free tshirts. Fyi, i won one. Cool Dewa tshirt...

Later this local band called Aegyptie came on. Didn't really know who they were but they were not bad. We were standing right in front and there were these huge speakers lined-up in front of the stage and the music was super loud so u can imagine how my eardrums were crying out for help. The crowd - lackadaisical.

Then came Bhumi band...only one thing to say, super irritating back-up singers. Crowd a little hyped up...also kinda pissed coz DEWA not out yet..

And then...the moment we've been waiting for! The magnifcent DEWA finally came on stage.WOW! They walked humbly up on to the stage...AHMAD DHANI...ANDRA....YUKE....TYO...and ONCE!

Their first song was Roman Picisan which is a beautiful song.
Blew me away. After i sang along of course :)

Then one song, and another.....all literally rocked my mind.

I dunno which song i enjoyed the most coz i loved them all...like

Matahari Bintang Bulan
Satu
Dua Sejoli
Separuh Nafas
Angin
Pupus
Kosong

and of course

PANGERAN CINTA!

That one swept me off my feet..I had a fabulous time. Did i mention that it rained?...Twice? And that this was an outdoor gig? Go figure :)

The finale song was Arjuna after which the whole band line-up in front of the stage and bowed. Wow.

ill remember this day forever. i've never been so awestruck by anyone. I've never actually come upon someone i m highly impressed by......Ahmad Dhani.

He started the band in 1986 after which they changed names, the music they played, the members. Yet after much perseverance & determination..he is now highly recognized for his music. And he's now a very successful millionare in Indonesia with a gorgeous wife & three adorable kids. Not forgetting he wrote almost all the songs not only for Dewa 's 7 albums but other artistes as well. Ahmad Dhani...you're worth my every WOW.

And not forgetting that their vocalist, Once (pronounced On-Chur) was actually a lawyer who decided to join Dewa as a vocalist instead and will be setting up his own law firm.

I took awesome close-up pics of 'em..will link up the pictures on this page. Not now though..coz im tired and very pissed off with the stupid SingPass. Effing SingPass.

2005-02-20T09:07:00.000+08:00

Sang Pangeran Cinta!!

Wow...APM was great. I finally got to see Dewa perform LIVE!! Wow...im telling u i've never been that excited before. While the people around me were screaming for Siti Nurhaliza and some singers i dun really knoe...I juz couldnt wait to see Dewa. Not that i don't support Siti Nurhaliza.

But c'mon people....This is Dewa we're talking about! The Music Geniuses from Indonesia! AHMAD DHANI! Can u believe it? Most of the people around us didn't even know who Dewa was! When the presenter was going to give out the "Anugerah Khas APM" (an award for musicians who have contributed ALOT to the music industry), i knew it was Dewa the moment she mentioned it's a group from Indonesia. This award probably meant nothing to them coz they've won thousands of other awards like that. They've been around for 19 years and their songs are pure magic.

-Have ever loved a song so much that every time you listen to it, it just touches your heart and soul and all you can do is close your eyes and feel it? Well that's the effect they have on me-

Anyway, the presenter was goin on about this "kelompok" or band and how much they've contributed to the music industry..but still not revealing the name of the band. My body was already shaking and my heart was pounding so fast it was gonna pop out. Then BOOM! Their faces came on the large screens...people still had no idea who they were but i juz couldnt hold back my adrenaline rush! I shouted "Dewa!!" while everyone else was quiet....hahaha that was hilarious. People turned to look at me like i was some crazy woman. Well, everybody was juz sitting still..not even clapping! In Indonesia, the reaction from the crowd would've been more happening! So i HAD to show my support even if i was the only one. My sister too, of course.

And then they came on stage to take their award! WOW....i was awe-struck. That's THEM...on stage..right in front of my eyes! DEWA. They sure are "dewa"s to me...

>>Fast Forward

Then it was their turn to perform...they performed "Pangeran Cinta" & "Pupus"...it was beautiful. Even my mom agreed! Mas Dhani, Once, Tyo, Andra & Yuke...DEWA. My support for you will never die!

>>Rest of the night

it was pretty okay. Although usually, we would expect the young teenagers to be the rowdier ones...u knoe, screaming unnecessarily..juz making lots of noise. However, last night, the rowdy ones were the old people...people as old as my parents! Older, in fact! It was exasperating. At least i onli shouted when Dewa was on stage..but they were shouting & screaming non-stop...challenging each other. People from the back, and people in my row...all supposed "mature adults". It was quite amusing at first..but it got to my nerves eventually. But its okay..i let it all out when Dewa were performing :D

>>Bhumi Band

Bhumi Band did Singapore really proud. They were really good and won 3 awards...a first for Singapore, i think. They're performance was impressive. CONGRATS BHUMI BAND...

I had a great time. How could i not? Dewa & Bhumi band in one night! and to top it off i got to take a picture with Awi Rafael :)

And guess what? That's not the end of it...there's the concert next Sunday. DEWA & BHUMI BAND! CAN'T WAIT!

2005-02-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Pangeran Cinta

That last post was uncalled for. PMS lah people....understand-derstood
lah k. Anyway..im excited coz im goin to APM tomorrow. Im finally goin to get to see Dewa perform LIVE! okay details...

APM - Anugerah Planet Muzik

I knoe there are probably people (people i know a.k.a certain friends of mine) thinking that this event is "pathetic" coz it is so "malay". Well if u dun like it then shut ur trap coz i never asked for your opinion. I happen to be proud to be a malay despite the catastrophic invasion of the double "m"s....mats n minahs dat is but that's another complicated issue i'd like to stay away from.

The main reason why i'm goin is to support Dewa. So, doesnt matter if i don't really know the other celebrities who are going to be there. oh and another band i'm gonna support is this local band "Bhumi Band"..i think they're quite good.

I'm also goin to their concert next Sunday at Fort Canning Green. Can't wait...

However, i know im goin to get over it soon. This happens to me alot...i get so hyped up & excited and can't stop thinking bout it. Then when i finally get over it...it'll be like it never happened and i never cared if it did. Haha..like last year's LP gig. Gosh...i'm not a HEEUUGGEE LP fan lah ok..but a few days after da gig i was still all hyped up over them and spent over $20 on their Live in Texas CD. $20...boy, was i regretting it a week after that. $20.....

Had a great time today at the airport with Shahidah. 'Cept for the part where she blames me for making her choke on her Vanilla Cappucino when i told an "untimely joke". Honestly, i didnt think it would be that funny! She was taking a sip..i made a comment...when she suddenly started coughing really bad and her body was shaking and she was covering her face which was so obviously red and her eyes were tearing. And she started grabbing the napkins on the table and covering her mouth like she was gonna puke. I PANICKED LIKE HELL! After more coughs and tears...she actually continued laughing. And i was like, "eh..are u okay?? Im so sorry! I didn't think it would be that funny!..." *Sigh* Oh well...at least she's fine now..THANK GOD.

2005-02-16T14:31:00.000+08:00

I am so tired of the world. So tired of life...of humankind..of the animosity. Sometimes i wish i can just stop living this disguisting world and just live for God. It makes me sick. I'm feeling sick. What's gotten into me? Must be pms-ing. *sigh* i dunno y but i leave the house and i get disguisted every time a human walk past. Then i realise that im human too. At that moment, my heart will start beating fast, my mind...blank. My guts want out. Disguist. Humans....i get all nervous when i'm around them. You never know what they'll do to you. Sometimes i just wanna run somewhere safe and curl up. Be safe. From what? I don't know...But do such a place still exist on this place we call Earth?....every inch of the earth has been kissed by Vulnerability. You just never know....never....know. Allahuakbar.

waaahhh

2005-02-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

So much has happened! anyway, i haven't been updating my blog coz my comp was down..still is actually. Basically...SO MUCH has happened.

UPDATE:
Retail Therapy. Purchased lots of merchandise for moi. Gorgeous shoes..*swoon* Finally got an iPod mini. A pink one ;)

I went to this concert by my former school's concert band. nothing interesting...

I also went to this gig over the weekend at the Esplanade, "MOCCA & Friends"....

-fyi, im a LIVE music enthusiast. Jazz, Bossa Nova, Indie, Electronica....music basically. Where there's good live music, chances are that's where i'll be. GOOD Live music-

Anyway, that's not the point. I was at the gig right....then i saw him!!! OMG....i was juz talking to my sis bout him and Ahmad Dhani (about him later)..and then i saw him! haha..i was excited...im not gonna mention WHO HE is though..na'ah. Now, what in the world do i SEE in him?

Ahmad Dhani is of course, the super-talented guy from Dewa.
-fyi, i luv Indo bands- Otherwise known as Dhani Manaf. He has his own production house, and he writes almost all their songs. And he's married with 3 children...haha. But the point is he is an inspirational figure. To know more about him and the band, feel free to check out www.dewa19.com

They're having a concert here at the end of the month. Of Course i've bought the tix! They're awesome. Did i tell u that the band itself is a year older than me? haha..yep they are. They've been around for 19 years. Long Live Dewa! Their latest hit is "Pangeran Cinta". Go check it out!

latest update..

2005-01-26T13:38:00.000+08:00

hey..here's one more post before i go out...i've inserted a video on the right>>! For now, its Franz Ferdinand's *Take Me Out*. Enjoy!

too much.

2005-01-26T08:59:00.000+08:00

good morning, Singapore! wow i woke up extra early today....without even trying! woohoo...wat an achievement. *rolleyes* Muaha. FYI, im not schooling nor working. So im pretty much free most of the time. Im excited coz im goin bugdet shopping later with Shahidah. i hope i can find really good steals coz i am so freaking BROKE. at the same time, im in urgent need of a new top, jeans, bag and shoes....preferably a pair of heels coz i broke the other one. *sigh*

I shouldn't be here right now..i should be cleaning up the house! See that's the thing bout me. Im a procrastinater. I've been denying it for a while but i've decided to face the truth and do something about it. To my friends, sorry im always late. I'm working on it..really. To my sis, i'll try and stop saying "Nanti.." everytime you ask me to do something...

I know i am 24 days late, but i have some stuffs to say bout the new year. I think 2005 will be the year where i will be doin a lot of *family-bonding*, with my cousins, my sister, my parents, my grannies, aunts, uncles...hopefully, i will also be doin some catching up with my old friends. Friends from my primary & secondary school, my hairstyling school...man, i miss my friends. Aini, if you're reading this...we have to catch up soon! I met Aini while i was a hairstyling student at Orchard Hotel last year. There is a Spa beside our school that belongs to National Swimmer, Leslie Kwok and Aini was a Customer Service Officer there. Ever since then, we've been pretty good friends. Initially, i was keen on getting to knoe her coz she had a pretty cute manager. Imagine how excited i was when i finally found out his name! Muaha..but nah, i was over him in a week. It was super-LAME and i never fail to CRINGE everytime i think bout it! Muaha...speaking of crushes, i'm gonna talk bout weird crushes i've had in my next post. CRINGE-WORTHY!!

it's a monday! continuation frm prev post....

2005-01-25T12:16:00.000+08:00

okay..the reason why i didnt start a blog sooner: i didn't like the idea of sharing my personal life with the whole world. Also, people may claim that they are not judgemental...but the truth is, everybody makes judgements all the time.

I was afraid...yes, i admit it...i was afraid that when somebody stumbles upon my blog they might go "ohmyGod can't ur blog get more ugly/boring/pathetic than this?!" and then i realised, i never cared MUCH about what people say bout me in real life, so why worry now right? i mean, hello, the blog is MINE after all and i shall have it however i want it. It's most important that *I* like it.

Besides, i dun hav to talk bout my personal life everytime juz coz most bloggers do...i can talk bout other things too. Now that im getting the hang of it, im actually starting to like it...So I really hope you enjoy this! And when I said *you*, I really meant *I*. So eat my shorts =P

mosquito bites

2005-01-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

How do i get rid of mosquito bites?? They're itchy, ugly and plain annoying. I juz came bck from kampung on Sunday and man, those mosquitoes sure have a HEEUGE appetite. It's still itching after all the scrubbing and what was probably a whole tub of Mopiko! I feel like i juz came out from an episode of Survivor.

Anyway, can somebody teach me how to add those wishlist stuffs on my blog? oh and how do i add some music? So complicated lah all these html and whatever shit..im practically IMMUNE to all this stuffs..they gimme a headache. That's what friends are for anyway..whatever gives me a headache, i let my frens handle for me. Muaha!

Here's a shoutout to Fahmi, even tho i did up this blog all by myself..still wanna thank you for helping me out when i first stepped into the world of blogging! You're the best, bro!

woohoo...wah dah pandai tukar colour seh orang tu! u knoe....mayb i should start another blog wer i write EVERYTHING in MALAY. hah amek kau!! it'll take me half a day to write a post and it'll take you a whole day to decipher! Dun worry, i'll save u the agony. More importantly, i'll save MYSELF the agony. Muaha..but dun get me wrong, my Malay is not THAT bad...but it aint that good either...Hey, what u laffing at??

Boredom killed the cat..and the rat...and...OMG its coming this way!

2005-01-24T20:19:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, lemme present to u, my first official blog post.

Am i excited? No. Am i delighted? No. Am i crazy? all the time.....but above all, Am i bored? Yes. and i'm tired of being bored...so that's why i'm here. with a blog. hah. a Blog.

i never had a thing against blogs but i never had a thing for it either, tho i know some people with super-awesome ones. I've read a lot of blogs, some got me hooked with their supposed life stories, some were not very impressive. There were also a few that belonged to people who probably didn't have much of a life to talk about so they talk bout other peoples' life and you can't help but wonder if its you they're talking bout. The rest are mostly neutral.

Now then, why am i only starting a blog now? that shall be in my next post...